I looked around. All I could see was blurriness. I looked over to see Jake. In tears he looked up.
"What's wrong babe?" I asked him a little lost.
"She didn't make it Hun." He said down in the dumps.
" What happened? How did she die? I don't understand."
"The umbilical cord had a hold of her neck without the doctor realizing it, he tugged a little too hard, causing her neck to break-I'm- I'm sorry."
I looked at him in tears. Him saying I'm sorry was all I could think about. It was all the doctors fault that I have to bury my own child.
We left the hospital an hour later.
"Would you ever want to try again?" I asked Jake.
Silence. I asked him again. Nothing. I looked at him. He had pain written all over his face. I sat in silence as we pulled in the driveway. He opened the door for me then closed it behind him. Brax was also in tears as we looked at him. He felt the same way that Jake did. He didn't talk when I asked him a question either.
"It's all my fault!!" I screamed in the bathroom in tears.
I tried to avoid wanting to kill myself. I looked at a razor, then at my wrist repeatedly.
" No. Don't do it. You will only cause more pain." I whispered to myself.
I walked out of the bathroom only to be met by Jake at the door.
"It was never your fault." He whispered.
I looked at him as I nuzzled my face into his chest.
Would you wanna try again? For One Heart of Love?" He whispered.
