Letting Him Go [slow updates] (unedited)

Chapter 9

One week later

Jessica's P.O.V.

"JESSICA GET UPPPPP!!!!" I heard my brother yell from the other side of the door.

It's been a week since Ryder and I have divorced and a week since I've been locked up in my brother's guest room. I would be lying if I said that I haven't cried after Ryder called me. I didn't know that it would hurt this much when I decided to let him go. I feel so empty and I can't seem to get him out of my head.

My parents found out about the divorce a few days before it was finalized and to say they furious would be an understatement. They were furious as to the sudden decision to leave Ryder and furious that they weren't the first one's to know when I decided to leave Ryder. I haven't told them the real reason as to why I was leaving Ryder, in fact I just told them that I didn't love him anymore and that I felt trapped and wanted to be free of him. At least one of those reasons were true. I felt so sorry towards Ryder's parents and I just couldn't face them. They were two amazing people who treated me with so much love and care and I missed them so much. On the other hand, I didn't quite miss their eldest daughter quite so much.

Just yesterday, I got even got a call from Hannah. Hannah is Ryder's older sister, who I should mention, hated me since Ryder and I got married. Hannah and Stephanie have been best friends since they were in middle school. She was the one who introduced Ryder and Stephanie in the first place, so she didn't hide her hatred for me when mine and her parents set up our marriage. I can't even describe how surprised I was when I saw her name pop up on my phone.

*flashback*

"Hannah?"

"JESSICA FITZGERALD WHAT THE HELL HAVE YOU DONE TO MY BROTHER?!?!"

"Hannah, please calm down. I haven't done anything to your brother. Also, I'm not a Fitzgerald anymore..."

"Well you have a lot of explaining to do. Ryder has been on a madman rage for quite some time now and Stephanie says it's all your fault."

Rolling my eyes and massaging my temple I told her, "Look Hannah, I haven't seen your brother in MONTHS and as far as I know he isn't my problem anymore." 

"What do you mean he isn't YOUR problem anymore. You guys are married you bitch." She said venomously. 

"Not by choice. Besides, I left your brother. Our divorce was finalized a week ago. If something is wrong with him, tell Stephanie to take care of him. She is the love of his life. I have no time for this anymore. Goodbye Hannah, please never call me again." I hung up and threw my phone on the bed. 

It's hard enough having to deal with the separation and having to explain to all my family members and friends why I was living with my brother these past few months and trying to convince them that I didn't love him even though I do and right now I'm just trying to deal with the fact that we aren't married anymore, therefore I don't have time for Hannah to be giving me hell. 

*end of flashback* 

I got off the bed and opened the door to the bedroom only to come face to face with Keaton's annoyed face. Keaton is my older brother by only five years but he still insists on treating me like a child. He was outraged when he found out that my parents were letting me marry someone I didn't even know, but after I convince him that I truly loved Ryder he let it go, only because he wanted me to be happy. Maybe I should've listened to Keaton in the beginning. Rushing into the marriage with Ryder when the feelings weren't mutual was a bad idea. Look where it got me, locking myself in my brother's guest room crying over someone who didn't love me back. 

"What do you want Keaton?" I asked quietly. I was so tired and this week has been insane, I just wanted to rest peacefully.

"Are you just going to keep locking yourself in this room and acting all depressed? Jessica, you deserve so much more than that asshole and I swear if I didn't have this important deal to finalize this week I would have killed him myself a long time ago." 

"Calm down Keaton. I rather not have to see you behind bars for killing my ex-husband. I'm fine, I just want time alone." 

"It's been months since you left him Jessica and a whole week since you guys have finalized your divorce! Before you married Ryder you used to go out and have fun with friends and now you pretty much shut everyone out. What happened to the girl who didn't make anymore bring down her bright and happy spirit. There was never a time when I saw you without a smile on your face Jess, I can't see you like this anymore."

I couldn't deny that Keaton was right. Before I met Ryder I spent time with a lot of my friends, going out to dinner, ice skating, hiking, bungie jumping...the list goes on. Point being, I've turned into this creature wrapped up in my blankets feeling sorry for myself. Maybe it is time to move on.

"You're right, I'm sorry. I'll contact Drew and tell him to get the whole gang together. Maybe we'll all go out and relax for a while. You and all your friends can come too. I haven't seen Sam, Tyler and Eric in a while. It'll be like old times." I suggested with a weak smile. Even though I feel like it is too soon to start my life all over again without Ryder, I know that I'm hurting everyone else by shutting them out of my life. Plus, I doubt Ryder is locking himself up in his room repenting for all the times he mistreated me. In fact, I'm sure Stephanie is taking extra good care of him now that he is free of me. 

This is it, I'm finally letting him go. 

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Hey guys,

I know I JUST said I didn't know if I was going to continue this story or not but I found this draft while going threw the chapters and thought I should finish it up for you guys. I know that some of you have been waiting months for a new chapter and I hope this chapter will satisfy for a little while. It may not be the best chapter but it's something right? Enjoy and again, thanks for your continued support. 

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