Truly, Madly, Deeply//Rosslington (#WattyAwards2015)

❤️Chapter 3❤️

Ross's POV:

I've kissed plenty of girls before, but I never felt any sparks or anything. But when I kissed Ellington..... I felt something for sure. I wrap my arms around his neck and pull him closer.

He pulls me onto his lap and I groan into his mouth. I feel him smirk and bite my bottom lip. He pulls back for air and I breathe heavily. "Amazing..." He breathes, one hand stroking my hair the other on my back.

I nod and nuzzle into the crook of his neck. "Will you be my boyfriend?" I ask boldly, I know what I feel for Ellington is strong. "Of course, Rossy!" He says, ruffling my hair and kissing my nose. I smile wide and hug him.

The Ferris wheel starts descending, so we separate from each other and act normal.
We exit the fair and walk to the car. I head for the passenger side but Ratliff pulls me to the back seat.

"What are you doing?" I ask, he gets in and rolls up the tinted windows. He locks the car and turns to me, "I want to be affectionate towards my boyfriend!" He replies before kissing me.

I wrap my arms around him and he gently pushes me against the seat as our kiss gets more heated. His lips attack mine and I return the enthusiasm. I feel his tongue slide across my lower lip, and I pull away.

"Ell, I want to continue, but we have to get back. Delly texted me a while ago and told me to head back."
He sighs and climbs up front, I climb into passenger seat. He starts the car and laces my fingers with his. "I'm sorry..." I say, rubbing circles with my thumb on the back of his hand.

"It's fine babe, I was just enjoying myself too much.... I didn't want it to stop, I wanted to keep going..." He avoids my eyes as he speaks. He bites his lip in that sexy way I love. "I wish it didn't end... One day, hopefully soon, we can be open about our relationship." I reply.

He smiles and gently squeezes my hand. The rest of the drive is in comfortable silence. When we pull into our hotel parking lot, I reluctantly pull my hand away. "Wanna cuddle tonight? We have to share a bed anyways." He asks, we did get partnered for beds tonight.

Ratliff's POV:

Ross nods and walks into the hotel, "What time is it?" I ask, "Nine o' clock." He replies. We walk into our hotel room, by 'our' I mean Riker, Rocky, Ryland, Ross and I."Hey guys!" Ross says, walking in and flopping on the bed. "Well, you guys have been gone for awhile." Riker says, looking up from his book.

"It was a great fair, a lot of rides, you should have come. But you both are heart sick puppies." Ross says, playfully sticking his tongue out at him. I stare at him and bite my lip, I want his tongue in my mouth... Too bad we aren't alone.
I finally snap out of my trance, and Rocky noticed me staring.

He turns and starts typing on his phone, and mine vibrates a few seconds later.

Rocky: Why were you staring at Ross?
Me: I wasn't.
Rocky: Don't lie to me. I seen you flat out staring, I also seen your crotch.... You had a boner.
Me: Did not! I can't explain here... Come downstairs with me.
"Rocky, Wanna come to the vending machine with me? You guys want anything?" I ask, Rocky gets up and walks to the door. "A coke!" Ross says, Riker and Ryland ask for the same. I grab some ones and walk out.

The vending machine is on the first floor, so we have time in the elevator. "Talk to me, what's going on?" Rocky asks, folding his arms across his chest. I have to admit, with his growing scruff, maturing face, and tall height, he looks intimidating.

"I'm g-gay and me and Ross are-" Rocky cuts me off by shoving me against the wall. "No! You can't be gay! Do you know how bad the fans will react?! They will hate R5! You can't date Ross. If you don't stop, I'll tell my dad." He says coldly, before walking to the vending machine.

He grabs the sodas and we silently walk back to the room. As soon as we get there, Ross notices how my mood has changed. "I'm gonna jump in the shower." I use that excuse, so I can cry my eyes out in peace.

(Warning! EXTREME sadness and some self harm ahead, please don't cry :'( I'm sorry Ellybear!)

I grab some clothes and walk into the bathroom, locking the door behind me. I take a deep breath as the tears spill over my cheeks. I can't believe it, my best friend Rocky doesn't accept me and Ross... I'm scared that he'll tell the others now.

I can't help but let out a muffled sob as I strip and get in the shower. I completely lose control and start bawling. I don't know what to do.... I grab one of the hotel razors on the counter....

The sadness I feel is so powerful, and hurting. I feel betrayed and angry with myself for letting our secret slip. One slice across my wrist. I cry and slice again. The more I cry, the more I cut. I end up with 4 scars on each wrist, and one very broken heart.

I clean my cuts and wash my hair before getting dressed. I walk out and jump into bed, I quickly pull up my covers and face the wall. I'm ready for bed, and I'm afraid if I look at Rocky or Ross I'll start crying.

The guys get in bed and shut off the lights. Seconds later I feel the bed dip beside me. I feel two large hands wrap around me and a head full of blonde hair lays on my shoulder. "Goodnight." Ross whispers. I pretend to be asleep because I don't trust my voice.

*the next morning*

Ross's POV:
I wake up with Ell's arms draped around me. I smile and rub his arms, I frown when I feel 4 lines on his wrists. I look at his wrists to see 4 fresh, pink, long scars. I check his other wrist to see the exact same thing. Ellington cut himself.

I feel tears fall down my cheeks. Why did he cut?! Ellington is my best friend, not just my boyfriend. He cut himself when he and Kelly broke up, but he promised not to do it again. Why would he break his promise?? I was too deep in thought to realize that Rocky was up.

"Why are you crying Rossy?" He asks, walking over and hugging me. "E-Ell cut himself..." I sob into his shoulder. My crying must have woken Ryland, Riker, and Ellington up. "What's wrong Ross?" Ratliff asks.

"Why did you break your promise? You promised you wouldn't cut!" I yell, before crying into Riker's shoulder. Ellington goes pale and looks at Rocky, "Ross... I...."

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