Complications in Paws and Love

2

Told As Brittany Brown
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I woke up this morning with tears running down my face. I had the recurring nightmare, I don't remember it very much of it but the end, the moment when my dad clutched my hand and told me to always listen to my mother. It always ends the same, to the exact detail of what happened that day. With one hand my father holds tightly on to my small 9 year old hand, and with his other hand he covers his mouth coughing. The cough turns violent and he clutches his chest while his, stained red from months of bleeding, eyes roll back wards and backwards. My father's cough, turning into screams, until he collapses backwards agains his pillow and his eyes don't roll forward again.

The nightmare plagued my unconsciousness most of the time. The worst part is it's all my fault, the only reason he died was because my birth. My mother had been from a rotten pack and ran away, when she met my father they didn't mate but they did get pregnant so they had to marry. Since they had me both worked, my mom became a nurse and my dad was a soldier, when I was six my dad became ill. None of the doctors could figure out why. But mother told me the truth, someone in the pack poisoned him because he had a child with my mother.

I'm drawn out of my thoughts by the hand against my back. I turn my head and see the sleepy fourteen year old blonde with a concerned look trying to wake up enough to comfort me. Clair was so kind to me, she was like a sister. We've have been friends for two years now, Clair was my only real friend. Clair was always with Jen though and I have weird feelings about the tan burnet who always scowls at me. For one thing. I think Jen is the most pretty girl I've ever seen, for two it was scary to think that about a girl, and for three Jen is so harsh towards me. I'm not the most graceful girl, I'm constantly falling, tripping, knocking over things, and dropping things and Jen is always there to correct me, scowl and glare at me.

"Did you have the nightmare again?" Clair asked softly trying to blink the sleep out of her eyes. The plan was for me to stay the night and go with Clair and Jen to the lake today, I've been staying at Clair's when I can. My mom pushed for it because she wants to raise our status but I want to be around Clair because she's like having a sister.

"Yeah but I'm okay" I said wiping the tears from my face. Clair was the only one I felt okay seeing me cry, she'd never scowl at me like Jen and she'd never yell at me like my mother.

"Okay I guess we should get ready huh?" Clair said climbing out of her bed and walking into the bathroom. While she changed in the bathroom I dressed in the room. I put on my purple bikini styled bathing suit top and some jean shorts, I honestly hated it and I hated showing my stomach. My body was so gross, I felt so fat even as my rib cage bones and hip bones stick out ever so slightly they look nasty. I look nasty.

Clair came out of her bathroom in a one piece neon blue bathing suit and a pair of basketball shorts. We both got our towels together and quietly opened Clair's window and climb on to the fire escape. It wasn't that we weren't supposed to go to the lake but we didn't want to wake Clair's dad plus he didn't know.

"Today is it, my last day of freedom and last day there." Clair mumbles with a sigh as we walk through the woods toward the lake.

"There?" I said back, I always forget that Clair is going to be Alpha. It makes me feel bad, one because I remember why my mom wants me to be friends with Clair and two because it makes Clair sad. Clair is excited to be a leader and all but she is scared to disappoint her father.

"Yeah I have to move into the main pack house. Ya know unlesssss they are wrong, I'll find out tonight!" Clair said softly trying to hide how she feels again with a laugh. She was referring to the fact we don't know if she's actually the next Alpha until her first shift. Well no one else knows but I can tell. Clair is meant to be our Alpha.

"Tonight? I thought it happened on your 15th birthday?" I asked following Clair as I nearly tripped, my goal is to become beautiful and graceful especially in wolf form.

"I meant at midnight, and technically you can shift before you turn 15 and that's why I won't be the only one shifting." Clair said and climbed on top of the fallen tree and offered me her hand to help me up.

"What do you mean?" I asked as she helped pulling me up and we both jumped down to the other side.

"Well you can shift early if your mate shifts before you. That's why mates are always within 5 years of age of each other. When I shift at midnight so will my mate. That's how I'll find her. Her and I will meet tomorrow officially because it will be reported to my dad when another young lady shifts for the first time and shifts early." Clair said stopping to look at me proudly.

"Her?" I questioned cautiously and quietly fidgeting slightly.

"Mhm! I'm a lesbian." Clair announced sure of herself.

"How do you know?" I asked quietly.

"Girls are pretty, and I just feel it." Clair said in soft but confident voice.

"What if I think girls are pretty too?"

Authors Note
I'm sad, gay, and tired. I miss someone terribly. I'm exhausted from school and a lack of sleep. Also I'm touch starved. Oh and I have homework to do ugh. Anywho anyone headed back to school soon?
~Nat