Lesbian

I don't like this

I'm struggling now, more so than before.

T.J. is acting weird. He doesn't want to talk to me anymore, and he is super nervous. I don't know what to make of it either, but I wouldn't wanna talk to me after all this gay stuff.

I don't even wanna be me after all this gay stuff.

Not to mention the break ups that are happening.

Relationships don't last longer than a week in this hell hole. If anyone asked me out I would say yes, because it would only last a week anyways.

Rachel called me a dyke today as well. The only thing that could be worse than asking what a gay was, is asking what a dyke is. See I only knew that a dyke was some sort of tool in my dad's rusty old tool chest. I had no clue it was a lesbian, and a mean thing to say to anyone.

I think I should stop being friends with Rachel, she is rude, and mean, and she doesn't even know that you can't substitute flour with powdered sugar. She also doesn't have a clean house, her carpet crunches and it's gross.

But we have been friends since kindergarten, I think I shouldn't end a friendship because of a few random instances, right?

And she is kinda pretty, from the right angle. I guess...