Today was the day Niall goes to therapy. He didn't want to go to a place where all they were going to do is pick him apart and see what is wrong with him. Niall did that daily he did not need some random person he didn't know who got paid to pretend to give shit tell him how he was supposed to fix himself. He can not fix himself nothing will work.
"hey are you okay" Louis said looking Niall in the eyes. Niall just started to laugh. How could he be okay he's go to therapy for fuck sake. Louis felt awful how could he have been so fucking stupid as to ask that question. Niall never told Louis anything he could've never stopped what happened and what is happening because he hasn't paid enough attention.
"Would you like me to go with you. So you don't have to be alone I could wait outside for you" Louis asked whispering hoping Harry and Liam wouldn't hear him ask. Niall wanted to say yes he wanted to plead Louis to go with him. He just wanted to cry into Louis because we was terrified. Instead Niall just shook his head and looked out the window.
Harry took a deep breath. Liam and Harry were trying to keep Niall and Louis distant. Then getting close is bad for to many reasons. When they arrived they all told Niall if he needed anything to just call and they would be around the street.
Niall walked into the building. As he got into the elevator he saw someone who looked familiar. "Emily " he questioned. "NIALL" she said hugging him. "Is today your first appointment?" she asked putting her hood down. Niall was thinking about wether he should tell her what he was thinking his whole ride here. Niall told her what he thought about therapist and how he knew it wasn't gonna work because nothing ever worked he was way to far gone. "If you don't try then it'll never work. If you think wrong then nothing changes. You have to actually try and stop taking the easy way out. I'm sorry for being honest but i think it's what you need" Emily said finally getting out what she know Niall had in the back of his mind. "You're right but it's terrifying and if it goes wrong then it's just like before i do not want help i just want everything to magically get better." Niall said wanting to cry and just lay down and never get back up. "That's not how life works. it's fucked up and it may take one year or five years or 30 years but things will get better they won't be perfect but they will be better " Emily said. Niall hugged her. She was right but he didn't want to believe he didn't want the help. He didn't want to listen. "good luck Niall I believe in you" Emily said as he got off the elevator. "wait can you come with me" Niall asked but she was already gone. Believe is what Niall kept in his mind. What a load of bullshit was his first thought ,but for some reason it stuck. "I'm Niall i'm here for" Niall said quietly. "Here for Mr. Green" the woman cut him off"
"I hope he's okay" Louis said.
"Lou i know you are trying to help but you need to back off. You could make everything worse for him we all want to be there but we still have to give him space" Liam said sternly. Louis was pissed what was he doing different than everyone else. Why was it his fault and nobody else's. "This isn't my fault Niall did this to himself because we weren't there for him no body was. I am the only one trying to treat him like normal." Louis fist we're clenched but he was still trying his best to talk normal. "We aren't the ones who have feelings for him. You will make it worse if you expect to much from him. You want s relationship and all these things but you're going to worsen what's happening" Harry said trying his best to not be to harsh. "DO YOU GAVE A PROBLEM WITH WHO I AM AND WHO I LOVE.THIS IS WHO I AM." Louis was furious and yelling. "we don't care what your sexuality is or who you love but we need to keep Niall's best interest in mind and your feelings will make it worse" Liam said talking quietly because of all the looks they are getting from those around them. "I need a break" Louis said running down the street. he has tears in his eyes. Some people tried to stop him for a picture but he couldn't looking like this. He went down an ally sitting in the middle letting himself cry. Of course it was his fault it never wasn't. All he wanted was to melt into a puddle and disappear.
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I wrote this because i saw some comments saying they wanted more. It's been a while and i won't promise anything but i do plan on continuing to write so hopefully it's not every year but 🤷♂️. thank you for all the reads and support i hope you enjoy!
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Fanfiction"Not every one will care what you say. Not every one will care how you look. Not every one will care how you feel. Not everyone will love you the way I do." Louis said before the love of his life drifted into an eternal sleep , so he thought.
