Playback: Want you to say
W e d e b u t e d T o g e t h e r.
W e l a s t e d l o n g e r t h e n a n y g r o u p.
W e w e r e f o u r.
4 little girls with big dreams. And I mean big dreams. We were supoose to be nine. Nine girls. One group. Pink punk. I remember that time you told me you wanted to debut. You wanted to debut with me.
We were friends.
Best of the best.
We were all really food friends. The nine of us hanged around. Played. Helped. Encouraged. A thing that a friend would do.
They were cool.
We went too trips. We practice hard. Really hard. My first months were hard. I didnt know what to expect. I didnt know what to do. What to say. How to feel. I had emotions running West, East, North, South. My body trembled. I remember crying. Crying by myself. I was scared. I thought it would be that easy. I thought I was at least better than everyone.
I was wrong.
Only because I was the only one who got choose didnt mean I was somehow special.
I had to work myself up. To prove my teachers they were wrong. I was a foreigner but with big dreams. I loved dancing. It was what I grew up with bambam. Wezaacool. My old group. My teammates before anyone else.
Dancing was everything. It ment a lot. My childhood was not a happy one..my real dad left.
He left us.
Me and mom
Was I not good enough. Was i a mistake. Did he hate me. I may never know why. I was small. My mom would cry in the dark. She would hide from me. In the daylight she smiled. She laughed. She said it was nothing it was his choice.
B u t i t w a s a l i e.
A l i e t h a t i w i s h
s h e n e v e r k e p t a w a y f r o m m e.
S h e t o l d m e a l i e.
S h e w o u l d c r y a t n I g h t.
I h a t e d I t.
I R e a l l y d i d.
Her eyes were always swollen when she woke up. Her depression gor worse. As days passed by I made sure to make you happy.
She told me once she loved seeing me dance so i did it for her. I was enter in a group. She meet a man. Who would soon be my step dad. And it happend. She was not sad any more. No more fake smiles no more cries.
And i wanted to dance more. I naturally grew into the beat.
I loved kpop then one d a y i w a s t o l d
I was told that yg ent. would come to thailand. It was my only option. I risked it. A week before I went away to present myself I made a fool out of myself. I told everyone I was going to be an idol. I told them I would become big. I would become a star.
They all laughed even my friends and family. I was humiliated.
Keep dreaming
Its not true
Lisa are you crazy
Are you that stupid
Where did you get that idea
