Antonio.
" Why are you acting like this ? " I ask to Tre who is already quickly walking to our bed .
He doesn't answer my question though ; he just gets into bed and tries to fall asleep. I drop the food on the granite kitchen countertop. I slowly take my shirt off and you'd think I'd retire to sleep and let this blow over . But y'all already know that ain't my kind of thing . Instead I jump on top of Tre and whine till he decides to give me a reaction. It didn't take too long as he decided to give me a deadly hit to the chest.
I take that hit because I know that he believes this another problem I've decided to bring in our lives. If he does happen to hit me again , he better be ready to get the tapping out of his life. His deep brown coconut eyes gaze brightly into mine. As mad as he'd like to pretend , I've always seen through it all. He was more than hurt at me but this time I could fix which made me feel better than anything.
Surprise surprise , I have never slept with Keisha. Yeah , it's about time I realized that I truly only love Tre. I'm still trying to be able to express it but he's going to have to give me time.
As soon as I open my mouth , I just let out everything that happened with her.
Flashback - Antonio
Keisha and I go way back , since we were little kids , around the age of seven I'm sure. Believe it or not , we used to go to the same church and that's how we became close. Our mothers were quite close , so obviously being around each other a lot made us very close. I know what y'all thinking , ole dude used to go to church ? Yeah , Jesus my savior , who tryna go to hell ?!
As Keisha and I grew up , it was apparent to the whole church that we were going to get married. I didn't find it weird though , I always saw possibilities that it could happen. I always used to hear my our mothers whispering , either arguing about what flowers are going to be displayed or the color theme of the wedding . I always used to chuckle seeing them butt heads over it while our pastor was really taking his time to preach.
You're probably asking yourself , if everything was so fine then what happened? I ain't like the bitch like that. I grew up and realized I wasn't craving her but rather a slender body man with very pretty brown eyes. Of course , I couldn't tell her that I was going to choose a man over her. So I played it off and told her I was not trying to end my playboy life , I further explained that I wasn't ready for commitment.
" Fuck you ." She began lightly. Then it rose and rose.
" After all these years , now you wanna tell me you're not ready for a relationship. Do you think I'm a fool ?! If you like somebody else why don't you just say it.."
I decided not to give her a response just cause I ain't wanna react at her.
" You know what , just forget it." She said and walked away.
I ain't never seen her since.
Present - Antonio
" So are you happy now ? Did you get what you wanted ? " I asked while heading to the kitchen.
I grabbed some lemonade out of the refrigerator and poured some in my cup. I also added a dash of Ciroq because you never know how Tre can get and I ain't really with the shits right now.
" I wanna go for a walk." He said out loud surprising me.
" Then go ...." I said taking a sip of whatever combination I just made , it was pretty good though.
He took the glass from me and poured it on my shirt . He now smiles , that " I can get away with it smile" . Those pearl whites , those Colgate smiles . Unfortunately , my plain ass gucci white shirt was ruined. So obviously, I wanted to wreck him but I kept my composure. Then he laughed ..
So I rocked his shit .
I pinned him against the wall .
Now we were face to face ,
Sweat dripping from his chest to mine ,
His breath was heavy on my neck ,
His dick got hard .
" Yoo , juniors up ?" I smirked .
" You can't expect me not to get turned on when you do this controlling shit. Get off of me." He said sharply.
" No." I simply say.
He knees me in my crotch , taking the light out of my soul.
" Oh Fuck !" I yell , falling to the floor. " Why are you so fucking complicated ?"
" If I'm complicated .. Should I leave ? " He asked.
"Do what you want , you seem to do a lot of that these days.." I said.
" I- if you weren't ready to fight for this. Then maybe I should just go.." He says.
" You basically begged to come live with me. Where would you go now Trevante ?" I ask.
" Fuck you , I'm here because you always seem to be unfaithful when I'm not there." He says lightly.
" And you are ?" I scoffed.
" He walked me home .. He didn't even .. YOURE delusional." He tells me.
" I don't care. You know the way I feel about that." I say.
" Do not use your insecurities to make conclusions about me. If you wanted me , you'd fight for this. You made me like this .. If I didn't fight , I'd loose myself and you said so yourself. So I won't be loosing myself anytime soon."
" If you wanna leave , then leave." I tell him. I'm tired of arguing pointlessly with him.
" Do you want me to leave ?" He asks me.
" Maybe you should for the night .. I need.. We both need some time to cool off .." I say.
He goes into the room and gets his quite shiny black nike duffel bag. He stuffs a couple shirts , some sweats , did I see some jeans ? and a couple of shoes.
" Maybe some days would be better ." is all he says.
" Oh word .." is all I can respond.
He gets close to me and reaches out his hand. This really the dumb shit we on now ?
I spat in it ..
" Just get the fuck bra." I say , literally pushing him out my place.
" Irritated doesn't look good on you." He says while he wiped his hand on my shirt.
" Don't fucking touch me." I spat at him and slammed my door.
I waited for footsteps to go and I sat down on my couch. I saw a bottle of Hennessy of the floor and straight jugged a good amount. I hate that he can get me fucked up like that. He's been getting his way a little too long now. I needed him to cry ..
As of right now though , I need a nut .. I quickly clean up the house making sure everywhere looks good and I even take out the trash.
I took a long hot ass shower and I stared at the ceiling. I saw his handprints and mine. The moments we used to have in here. I don't even know what's happening. Did we really become that toxic ?
I fix myself up and throw on a grey sweatsuit . Then I pull out my matching grey slides. I sit back on my couch and light my blunt.
I find myself calling up ole girl Keisha...
" Hello ?" She says.
"You tryna stop by ?" is all I ask.
Trevante
Honestly, I didn't really have anywhere to spend the night. I thought about getting a hotel but I didn't feel up to it. Antonio really said I cheated on him... like really ? After all the slimy shit he did to me and I stayed through it all. If he wants me to cheat , I can go there..
I suddenly find myself at this guys doorstep.. I ring it.
The door opens..
" What is you doing here ?" Mathew asks me.
I sigh.
He opens the way for me to come and he holds me around my waist.
The door closes.
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than writing spirit . I'm back on my writing
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