perfectly imperfect

chapter 4

I recommend you listen to "I don't mind" by Darren Criss when reading, as that was the song I was picturing Blaine would sing to Kurt.

It's Thursday night, and it's my almost date with Kurt tomorrow. I'm actually so nervous, I'm showing him a new part of me that no one has ever seen before. My songs are poems about my deepest secrets, my sexuality, my identity and well Kurt. I hope he doesn't link that the song I've written is about him, as I bet he'll be creeped out that I have this massive thing for him. A part of me wants him to know, but then I remind myself that my popularity would be on the line. Then again Kurt's worth it, he'd always be worth it. I'd do anything for him and anything to be with him. Thats what my song "I don't mind" is about, how I don't care what Karofsky or anyone says, I want to be with him. So I'll try not to stress about playing my song, I've practised it all night. What will be will be I guess.

Here goes, Its already 5pm and time for my performance too Kurt. We chose to meet in the choir room as we felt it would be most appropriate, which I've never been in, much to Mr Schuester's disappointment. "Hey Blaine, how are you?" Kurt walks in, wearing a light grey waistcoat and his signature hippo broach. "Hi, yeh I'm doing good, a bit nervous," I said apprehensively, whilst kind of hoping he didn't want to hear. "Oh don't be, I would never judge you. Besides I bet its gonna be beau.. I mean incredible," Kurt blurts out, hang on was he about to say beautiful? "Um well I hope so," I replied and in that moment I knew I should play it for him. So I unclipped my acoustic guitar out of its case and started tuning it. "May I ask, whats your song about?" Kurt questioned. I thought for a while about my response, I can't just confess my love for him already. "Well I guess it's just about how I feel in this school, how I want to be someone else. Who I want to be."

I played the final chord, that was it. I don't think I made a mistake, but I was just so caught up in the lyrics I wouldn't have known. Slowly, my gaze met Kurt's stunning ocean-blue eyes. There was moment. One like you see in a shitty romantic comedy or read about in fairytales, where everything just stopped. I felt so connected, so safe and all I wanted to do was confess my feelings. We both giggled and blushed like two lovestruck teenagers. "Blaine? That was beautiful," Kurt said whilst looking into his lap looking almost vulnerable. "Kurt, by the way you look, I'm guessing you know what the song was really about?" I asked, maybe because I knew I wanted to come out to him, without having to say the words directly. "Yes" he replied. My heart started beating out my chest, I just don't know what to say. "You know Blaine, I think I do too," Kurt looked up at me as time stopped again. Of course he knew what I wanted to say, that I have feelings for him. I just can't believe he feels the same. Now I was just thinking about what to do next.
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to be continued, yeh i'm sorry kinda left it on a cliffhanger. but klaine has started guys