first day of school
i woke up to the sound of my alarm.
i looked at the time,
and remembered today was
the first day of school.
i got up, and got ready.
i changed into black high waisted jeans,
a plain white t-shirt
tucked inside the jeans, white vans,
and tied jisung's hoodie around my waist.
i then put my hair up in a ponytail,
grabbed my backpack,
and left to the bus stop.
jisung said his mom was taking him,
so i was alone on the bus.
i just stared out the window
the entire drive to school.
once we arrived, i got up,
and entered the school.
i looked around for jisung,
but couldn't find him anywhere.
after looking around for another five minutes,
i found him talking to minho by his locker.
i started walking over to him
after minho stopped talking to him.
he was getting something out of his locker,
so he didn't see me
when i stood next to him.
y/n: "jisungi oppa~"
he closed his locker,
and looked over at me.
minho did the same thing.
i was about to hug jisung,
but he suddenly pushed me away from him.
i was confused.
j: "get away from me."
y/n: "what's wrong?"
j: "i don't want the nerd hugging me."
y/n: "what? jisung what do you mean, 'nerd'?"
j: "you heard me, nerd."
people started crowding around us.
y/n: "i don't understand."
j: "are you deaf, dumb, probably even both? i said i don't want the nerd hugging me, or touching me honestly."
tears started forming in my eyes.
i tried holding his hand.
y/n: "jisung-"
he slapped my hand away,
and pushed me to the ground.
that's when the tears
were starting to fall down.
i got up,
and looked jisung straight in his eyes.
y/n: "you must think you're so smart, but you're really dumb. you call me your girlfriend over summer, but now i'm a nerd in school?"
everybody seemed shocked.
jisung was a little frustrated,
but responded.
j: "i don't know what you're talking about."
y/n: "are you kidding me? so you don't remember giving me this hoodie?"
i took his hoodie from my waist,
and showed him.
j: "n-no..."
y/n: "so you don't even remember saving me from death? me taking care of you? all the times we spent together over the summer?"
j: "i-i...i don't know what you're saying."
y/n: "really? so that time you kissed me means nothing to you?"
everybody around us
started making shocked faces,
and started whispering to each other.
j: "n-no......"
y/n: "you know what?"
i threw his hoodie on the ground.
y/n: "this is it, you treated me like a princess, just to treat me like trash again. you lied to me. you told me you wouldn't leave my side. yet here you are.
j: "y/n i-"
y/n: "i trusted you, jisung! now i just hate you. i feel betrayed. i told you about my mother, i told you about the orphanage, i even told someone who is like my brother that you were my boyfriend! he even accepted you! and this is what you do to me? so you know what? fuck you, han jisung."
i turned around,
and pushed people out of my way
as i walked to the girl's bathroom.
i locked myself in the handicapped stall,
and put my earbuds in.
i started playing fool by winner,
sat down on the ground,
put my face in my knees,
and closed my eyes.
once it was almost time for first period,
i left to find my class.
i found it quickly,
and sat down since the board said to. hopefully jisung won't be in any of my classes.
after school, i ran to bus station.
once the bus arrived,
i went to the back quickly.
i sat down, plugged in my earbuds,
and played sorry by the rose.
i saw jisung looking for a seat in the back.
he looked at the seat next to me,
but sat in the seat across from my seat.
he looked outside,
and there were a few tears falling.
i hid my face in my knees,
and waited for my stop.
once the bus stopped at my street, i got off. jisung was walking behind me,
but i tried to ignore him.
once i successfully got home,
i went to my room.
i closed the door,
and broke down on my knees.
why would he do this?
why would he lie to me?
why would he bully me again?
that's when it hit me.
he told me to figure out why he bullied,
and saved me.
did he bully me because
he didn't want anyone to know he liked me?
is this why he changed in summer?
well, only in summer?
my thoughts were stopped by the doorbell.
i quickly wiped my tears,
and went to the mirror
to try to make myself look better.
once i had looked fine,
i opened the door.
y/n: "nana? what are you doing here?"
jm: "someone volunteered to take care of the kids today, so i wanted to check up on you."
y/n: "oh well come in."
we went to the living room,
and sat down on the couch.
y/n: "so why did you want to check up on me?"
jm: "i saw everything that happened at school, with you and jisung."
y/n: "oh,"
i looked down,
and jaemin rested my head on his chest
with his arms around me.
jm: "you can cry if you want, it's okay."
and with that, i started crying.
i can't believe i thought he
would be nice in school.
i didn't cry as much
now that jaemin was comforting me though.
y/n: "opppa?"
jm: "mhm?"
y/n: "do you think jisung still likes me?"
jm: "honestly, i think he just tried hiding his feelings by being mean to you, so i think he still has feeling for you."
y/n: "i guess."
jm: "how about we watch a movie? we can go watch something at the movie theater since i brought my car."
y/n: "okay,"
then we left to the movie theater
in jaemin's car.
