to my world • lee eunsang

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차은아

i woke up as the sunlight basking through my already-open window. i try to move my left leg which was folded under my my right leg, maybe since i fell asleep yesterday. ouch, my legs cramp!

i look down to check what cloth do i wear since yesterday. crap, its my wet hoodie.

i think that i accidently fell asleep while i am cleaning my room that was so messed up because of the heavy rain yesterday. my room's roof were already worn out, just waiting its time to completely tear down.

what  am i going to wear if this hoodie is still wet?

i sigh heavily as i am thinking what to wear since i am left with only a white plain t shirt and an old denim coloured jeans in my wardrobe. i dont really like to wear that plain white tshirt since i am afraid that it will make my innerwear visible. that was totally my insecurities.

well, i guess i have no other option since it is the only ones left.

looking at my water-proof watch, the only gift that my 'mom' gave, i have 20 minutes left before my class starting. i hurriedly took my towel in the wardrobe and speeding towards the bathroom.

" oh, eun ah? you have classes today? " my senior, Soo Yi greet me as i come out from my room. i just smile and nodded as i hurriedly boost to the unoccuppied bathroom.

i imediately winced in pain when a drop of water make a contact with my already dried wounds because of a scene yesterday.

damn, i dont even have money to buy band aid.

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i wear my bag on my shoulder and neatly tied up my long brown hair in a pony tail. i put on my round glasses just above my bridge nose. done.

as i stepped outside the house, i was greeted by Jin Hee, who was waving happily at me.

" good morning, eun ah! oh? you are wearing a white tshirt today? thats kinda new. where are your grey hoodie? you wear it the most to the class. " she asked.
" its still wet. " i replied her shortly. she nodded and is about to step into the house when i stopped her by holding her arm. " didnt you have classes today? " her face become blank for once then she smiled, " i am just going to skip today. you can go alone, right? " she answered me in a delightful smile. i nodded slowly. " then, goodbye. be careful on your way! "

then, i heard the door closed.

its not that i cant walk to the university by myself, we didnt even usually walk together since she is always late for classes but, its just i am worrying about her results. she always ranked last in our class and her highest rank was second place, from the bottom.

not wanting to be late for class, i walk in a quick pace to the nearest bus station.  there, i stand properly while waiting for the scheduled bus to come.

i am kinda envying her. i mean, Jin Hee.

she was the only child in her family and she was luckily born in a rich family. her parents are a famous businessman and business woman in korea. so basically, she can have everything in her life without working so much to get what she wants. she will be  in the rent house only from monday till friday, which is when she need to get to class. on weekends, she will go to her house and throw up a god knows what party.

simply to put, she have her own happiness in a very young age where everyone struggling to even have a penny to eat.

while, i am... nah, im just fine.

envy. envy. envy.

as soon as the bus that i am going to board arrived, i pushed away my thoughts and climb on. i took out my transportation card and scan it on the machine but, it was unexpectedly didnt beep.

wait, what? i thought i still have $2 left?

" i am sorry miss but i think you need to reload your card. it seems out of balance. "

" no,no i think i still have some balance left. wait a minute- "

" i am sorry miss but we need to get going. there are so many people who want to ride this bus, i dont want us to be late. theyre going for work too,miss, so if you doesnt have money, just take a walk. "

i dont even have any money in my pocket.
what am i going to do right now?  my class are starting in less than 5 minutes. i dont want to be late-

" i will be paying for two. " i heard a guy's manly voice behind me. after that, i heard a beeping sound. i dont know what to react so i just slowly walk in to the bus. there was no empty seats so i am just going to stand and holding the ring above my head so i wont fall.

i am still trying to search for the guy earlier when i heard a familiar guy's voice beside me, " urm,miss, i think you need some help with that. "

i immediately turn to face him. he was red haired and wearing a casual black and white t shirt, looking just like a typical college guy . he was staring at my knees and when i look directly at where his eyes at, i finally realised that my wounds are blooding again which left a blood stain on the knees part of my jean.

" ouh, i am okay, that was just a minor wound. "

" i dont think so, " he check for a thing inside his bagpack and bring out a band aid a moment later. " you can use this. just in case it will blood again. " he give me the band aid.

i bowed as i thanked him. he reply with a smile and told me to put it quickly on my wound. i lift up my jean halfway untill it reached my knees and applied the band aid on the wound.

" next time, if you ever get this type of wound again, dont you ever take it easy. it will be worst if germs were included. " he told me. " got that, miss? "

i just nodded.

this is my first time. my first time that a guy start to talk to me first.

and seriously i dont know how to react to it.

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im sorry if it was bad.