To cry during the night,
so loudly that everybody could hear me,
so softly that I can't even hear myself.
Words that hurt me.
School
Friends
Dance
Love
A succession that in life kills me
and consoles me,
making me stronger,
making me more fragile.
To collapse,
the floor becomes mobile sand,
the head is heavier,
chains twisted aroung my pain.
Permanent loneliness,
shaky company.
It's always darker
It's always more intense.
There was always me,
There were always them.
They loved the sun,
I loved the rain.
Inside the storm,
Praying that it won't stop,
The only way I find my balance.
Clock hands slow down
and the blood in the veins pumps faster
To devise a way to get out.
I close my eyes.
