Gamble.

15.

pov change. fitz.

Four years have passed.

Four years since I last saw her. Her face, her smile, her eyes.

We've moved bases since then. Some of us have changed our appearances.

I can't even open my closet. It has all of her stuff in there...

I can't bring myself to do it.

The gang's business has been kicking off really well and we haven't really struggled with finances as Jay took over Y/n's financial strategies and manages all of our money.

Overall, we've been handling things okay. It's been a process, but we've all be doing somewhat alright.

I'm laying in my bed. Comforter pulled up to my neck as I stare at the wall. It's cold in here. I can see my hot breath in the air.
This is the harshest winter we've had since... the last time I saw her.

I drag myself up out of bed and walk over to the heater in the corner of the room. I bring it over to the side of the bed and turn it on, crawling back into bed and curling up under the blankets.

The heater began to heat up the room and I closed my eyes to try and fall asleep. It was 5:26 am. My sleep schedule hasn't been on track for a long time.

I hear a knock at my door.

"Cam? It's Macey." I hear Mason's gentle voice from the other side of the door.

"Come in."  I spoke softly and watched the bedroom door creak open. In walked Mason and he stood in front of me.

"You need anything?" He asks me and I shrug.

"I don't think so." I tell him. He nods and pats my head.

Mason knows how hard I've been taking it since then. He understands from a similar perspective. He loved her too. Just like me. He's been making sure that I've been okay.

As Mason began to leave the room I stop him by calling him name. He turns around and looks at me.

"Thank you." I tell him and he smiles, nodding before leaving the room.

-

I eventually got about two hours of sleep and then decided to wake up and get ready for the day. I had some business to do and also needed to distract myself from my usual thoughts.

Everyone was already up and about, doing their own thing. I walked into the kitchen and made myself some cereal before turning on the tv. I put on the news channel and listened into it.

It was the normal gang activity updates and then they switched over to weather updates. There was supposed to be a huge storm that was going to hit our area in a week. They advised us to board up our windows and prep our bases so we dont get washed out. It was a bit odd since it was winter and this was going to be a big rain storm, but Australian weather is weird anyways so it wasn't too surprising.

That's what I needed to be doing today. I was gonna go to the store and get materials to get ourselves ready for this upcoming storm.

I finished eating and walked back to my room, changing my clothes and then heading out. I passed by the boys in the lounge and smiled. That kind of took them a back but they ignored it.

"Do you guys need anything from the store?" I asked them. "I'm getting storm prep stuff so if you need anything nows the time to tell me."

"Can you get smores poptarts?" Eric asked me. I frowned for a second but nodded. "Yeah sure, anyone else need anything?"

"Make sure we have enough alcohol. And also more blankets please." Toby asked and Mason agreed. When I looked over at Jay he shook his head and I nodded.

"Alright.. I'll be back in a few hours" I told them and headed out the door.

-

pov change.  y/n.

I can't see anything.

It's pitch black in here.

I don't know where I am.

I don't know what's going on.

What's going on?

Is anyone there?

Can anyone hear how loud my thoughts are?

Someone help me...

Help me please.

I jolt awake in my bed and tears stream down my face.

It's been two weeks since I finally escaped. Two weeks since the gang disbanded finally. Two weeks since my sister told me to run away.

I lay on my old bed at the previous base I used to live at. It had been abandoned by the boys. I had no clue as to their whereabouts. I was hoping to locate them soon and return... But I was afraid.

How has their lives changed since I left?  I don't want to come back and ruin anything. Had they moved on? Had... Cam moved on?

In the back of my head I secretly hoped that he'd wait for me but in all reality I'd be happy for him if he had found someone new.

I breathed out heavily. Watching my hot breath cloud up in the cold air.

I needed to find them soon.

I missed them a lot.