Just....

THAT SMILE OF YOURS

Passing by you showed me

I was a girl who needed a boy

A boy,

To hold me right

To care for me

To say I am beautiful even when I cry

To hug me saying its fine to fail

But I can't need a man or a boy

I was not just a girl.

I was an adult

An adult who forgot what love is.

An adult who faced the harsh reality of the world

An adult who overcame her teenage heart break

I can't need a man

I don't need a man in my life

I don't need someone to say," you are fine. I am here for you. You can lean on me."

I really don't

I wished I wouldn't need him – My person

Then you came into my life

Reminded me the beauty of love

Reminded me the craziness of love

Reminded me how it feels to be a man's woman

Reminded me the feeling of wanting to be loved

With just your presence,

You reminded me I was a girl who needed a boy.

You changed my mind, my heart and me.

I forgot me.

The me who deceived herself

The me who told she forgot love

The me who resented her life.

The me who loved loneliness.

I forgot me.

I needed more to feel alive.

I needed more of you to feel alive.

I became greedy

Greedy for your love, your scent, your touch, your voice

I felt you.

I felt you even when you were with her

I felt your sadness when you were hurt

I felt your wounds just like it were mine

I felt your smile, your happiness and your tears

I was not yours neither you were mine

I admire you, though you are not a perfect man

I admire your stubbornness when you need something,

I admire your anger though it is reason less