LOVE like WAR

Party

Riley's POV

As usual I was ranting about Connor to Rebecca, she was on her laptop editing a new video, she didn't really care, I could tell by the tone of her voice, whenever she answered me with some half hearted attempt to make me feel better. she pretended to care. so I carried on. I'm bored. What else am I supposed to do.

"Riley?" She cut in mid sentence.

"Yes?" I ask raising one eyebrow at her, in a comical way.

"Would you mind if I went out for lunch with Jenn, Andrea and Lauren?"

Her question hurt me, because they have all been ignoring me since all this shit started with Connor. I can't stop Rebecca from seeing her friends though, I now realise that I've probably been really selfish recently.

"Oh yeah of course, it's your life you can do whatever you want!"

Wow Riley, try and make it sound a little more believable next time.

I put my face Into my hands and leant against the wall.

"Sorry Rebecca, yeah you can, it's honestly not my decision, and I know you haven't seem them in a while."

"Thanks Riley!" Rebecca grabbed me and pulled me into a hug before she left the apartment.

I didn't have much to do, I wasn't really up to seeing my sister, Rebecca is quite literally my only friend at the moment.

I walked into my room and slumped down onto my bed, I scrambled around for the remote before switching on the TV, re-runs of the same shows over and over again. I decided to leave the TV on in the background so I would feel less... Alone, I guess. I turned on my phone, which I haven't done much recently, I've been keeping it off to avoid as much drama as possible.

I went onto my Instagram profile, I'd been tagged in a lot of things, I decided to interact with the fans I still have, one girl had made a really sweet edit of me, it was actually pretty cool. So I liked it and commented. I went through a lot of pictures and edits repeating the same action. That's when I came across a picture, I wasn't going to like it, or comment or in any way indicate that id seen it, it was a picture of Connor and I kissing, it was a picture that had been taken at some festival earlier on that year. It was really sweet and it made me feel pretty sad about the whole thing. Well up until the point when I remembered what an idiot Connor actually is.

I shut off my phone not wanting to see anything else about me or Connor, so once again I was left watching re runs of old shows like friends. Which I have seen a countless number of times.

I was drifting to sleep, I'm not actually sure if I had fallen asleep or not but I was awoken by lots of cheering and laughing from the next room, I checked the clock to see the time.

1:34AM

Wow yeah, I had fallen asleep. I cracked open my room door to see who was out there, everyone was. And by everyone I mean EVERYONE. Rebecca, Jenn, Andrea, Lauren, Arden, Alexa, Lia, Jack, Andrew, Jc, Ricky, Kian, Sam, Troye and even Connor.

Way To go Rebecca.

I shut my door not wanting to hear or see anything going on out there, but the music just kept getting louder and louder and I couldn't take it anymore.

I opened my bedroom door and crept round the corner so no one could see me, I was still in the clothes I was wearing earlier, I grabbed the remote from next to the speakers and ducked down again so I was hidden from view. Just as I thought I was safe to turn the music down, without anyone noticing it was me, I tripped over a wire and into all the drinks that were laid out on the side. Everything went silent.

Id been seen.

By who you ask?

By everybody.

I stood up as quickly as possible, my white top was stained red and my tights were ripped underneath my skirt. I wiped the remainder of drink off of my face, I stank like alcohol, I don't even drink alcohol. I brushed my hair out of my face and tip-toed back to my room feeling nothing but pure humiliation. I'm a dipshit I really am.

Everyone stayed silent for a while. Well not silent I can imagine them all whispering about me. But then again I'm probably just being paranoid. This is my home. And I don't feel comfortable in it right now, it's been invaded by people who hate me. People who I used to be friends with.

I think I'm most upset about Jenn, Jenn was my best friend. I literally did everything with her, but she's also really close to Connor she knew him long before she knew me. with kian and Andrea dating and kian taking Connors side, Jenn did too, I'm shocked Rebecca believes me because no one else seems too.

I changed into my pyjamas and threw my clothes into the wash. I crept under the covers and just lay there awake for a while.

Im an idiot. No wonder no one believes me.

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I actually like this chapter🙈✌️ Yay.