chapter 5

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noen woke up and immediately smushed his face against his pillow. he felt utterly exhausted and just wanted to lay in bed all day. his body felt sore even though he didn't exert much energy in the past 24 hours, but he was allowed to mope around in bed all day if he felt like it. especially cause of what happened last night.

noen shot up as everything from the night before came rushing to his head. he honestly had forgotten for the first 20 seconds he was up, and he groaned in realization at what he had done. "ok," thought noen, "maybe i overreacted a tiny bit...".

noen put his face in his hands, and stayed like that for what felt like an hour, but was probably just 10 minutes. he wanted to reach for his phone and see the damage from the night before, see if maybe chase had tried contacting him again.

alright, so noen had a little crush on chase. maybe he's known for a while, but was too afraid to confront his feelings, or maybe it's just a little friend crush.

yeah, it's a friend crush. he just looks up to chase and appreciates him a lot is all.

and sometimes a thought or two may pop into his head of them kissing, and holding hands, and falling asleep in each other's arms. but that's totally normal, right?

fuck, so hypothetically, noen may or may not like chase. but that's not important right now. he can spend time later thinking about it. for now he just wants to text chase and apologize for how he acted. he doesn't necessarily regret what he did, but he can admit that it was a bit childish and overdone.

he finally took his head out of his hands and stretched, blonde hair completely covering his eyes and pointing in every single direction. he nervously grabbed his phone from the bedside table, front-facing the bed, and fiddled with it for a couple minutes. as he was about to turn it over and look at his notifications, benji came running from the hallway and jumped on his bed, causing his phone to fly on the carpeted floor.

"holy shit benji, you could've given me a heart attack," noen squeaked, hands over his heart.

"i couldn't just sit there and watch you sulk for much longer, it was honestly becoming unbearable," replied benji. "plus, jorge and i brought you back lunch, it's already 2pm, you basically slept the whole day. we thought it could help cheer you up a bit."

noen wasn't really thinking about food till benji brought it up, but he was kind of hungry and could've used something in his system at the moment. he wasn't trying to put off looking at his phone or anything, he'll get back to it in a couple minutes, he promised.

noen joined the two boys in the living room and ate with them. it was nice having a little distraction. they were a little hesitant with what happened the night before, but decided to not bring it up unless noen wanted to speak about it. which didn't seem like the case at the moment, seeing as the blue eyed boy was just laughing with them about absolute nonsense and trying to make the rest of his stay enjoyable.

"we're gonna go to an arcade later, try to win each other some stuff to keep as memories," jorge said a bit shyly. noen smiled, completely down for that and excited to just clear his head and hang out with his friends, no drama involved whatsoever.

with reluctance, noen excused himself and told the boys he would be back in a couple of minutes, he just wanted to talk to chase.

both of them gave him a little smile, benji going up and giving noen a reassuring hug, telling him if he needed help or wanted to talk about anything, they were just a literal second away. noen thanked them, a little teary eyed, and jorge teased him about being a little baby to lighten the mood.

noen let out a small laugh as he walked back to his room, suddenly becoming a bit too nervous. it's just a phone, for crying out loud, it's not even like he's confronting chase face to face, he could do this.

he finally picked up the phone from the floor and turned it over, his face id unlocking and immediately popping up with over ten notifications from chase and his friends.

"jesus christ," muttered noen. he felt like a bit of a dick, but he didn't expect this much, maybe just a simple fuck you, or a text saying chase couldn't deal with noen, something along those lines. but of course not, this was chase after all. he didn't think chase had a mean bone in his body.

chase💗: i cant sleep without making up with you bubba, please just tell me if i did something wrong, i just want to apologize. this is honestly stupid.

chase💗: noen please, i honest to god don't understand, if you could just respond, i don't want to fight with you

chase💗: just gonna try calling you, miss your voice so much

chase💗: i feel so bad, i told my friends to delete the tweets about you. i'm sorry noen, i love you

chase💗: my hearts honestly breaking right now man.

jaden: bro if you could just respond to chase, getting tired of him whining about you, it's really getting sad and he can't sleep cause of it.

anthony: hey dude sorry about the tweet earlier just got mad in the moment, hope all is good between us, could u just answer chase though? he's looking pretty rough over this /: lol

chase💗: ok, going to bed now, hopefully you see these when u wake up and respond, still love u even though u seem to hate me at the moment, good night bubba, sleep well.

noen sighed, he had two missed calls from chase as well. he felt his heart break in the moment, wished he could've been up to reassure him that even though he was mad he would explain himself in the morning. he just felt so fucking dumb for making everything into a big deal.

the truth was, chase wasn't noens. he couldn't be mad at him for flirting or being with other people, he was his own person who could do whatever he wanted. he had no authority to act like that with him, chase wasn't an object he could just own. even though it hurt noen seeing chase actively be into someone else, it didn't matter cause at the end of the day they weren't together. who even says that chase has the same feelings as him. and noen is still unsure about how he feels.

an overwhelming amount of guilt started to suffocate noen, he needed to make sure chase knew he did nothing wrong.

noen🌸✨: i'm so sorry, i fell asleep and didn't hear my phone in the middle of the night. you have no idea how much i regret last night, it was so out of character and wrong for me to be like that with you. i was just mad and taking it out on you, which i shouldn't have done. when you wake up call or facetime me later, i'll explain myself a bit more, i'm just over the whole thing, i hate fighting with you. it seems so wrong. love you.

noen sent the message and felt a bit of a weight lift off his shoulders, he just wanted to make sure chase wasn't mad at him for not responding and that everything would end up fine. before he could dwell on the matter for much longer, benji and jeyjey walked in, threw clothes at noen, and demanded him to get out of bed. he laughed and got dressed, put on some of his rings and chains, grabbed his bag and got ready to leave for the day.

he hoped everything with chase would get better when he woke up, but for now all he cared about was spending time with his close friends and being happy in the moment with them.

although, it wouldn't hurt him to keep his phone in his back pocket incase chase decided to wake up soon.

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a/n: hey guys, tysm for all of the support<3 i hope u all enjoy this chapter :) things are gonna start picking up so sorry if it's a bit slow <3 anyways love y'all have the best days

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