Falling into Bliss [OC x Alexa Bliss]

Darkness Before A Good Evening...

Author's Side-Note: I know the picture above is not wrestling related, and I am well aware that it's a Star Wars picture, but it's more-or-less here as a representation of how the mood will be for Jack, and a part of what goes on in his mind with his condition...minus the lightsaber...Also this chapter will mostly be from Jack's perspective, with maybe one or two pov's from others.

Jack's Personal Observation:

After getting back to the coach and tucking Angel into bed after she practically jumped into my arms as soon as I got in (which Barbara took her chance at taking a picture of might I add): I began to drive us off onto the road. The journey was going to be a long one, no doubt, but I was confident that we could make it in time for the Hall of Fame Ceremony.

The girls were all asleep, or at least that's what I assumed they were doing anyway, I can never tell sometimes if they sleeping or scheming something to celebrate my birthday...which was last month in March...

And just to clarify: they did remember my birthday, as did my friends in the wrestling world like Finn, AJ and Rollins to name a few, and even Angel remember as well...the only one who choose not to remember was myself. For reasons I may speak of another time...

The only ones who were with me was Winter and Max, but both were asleep next to my chair, which to fair to them I didn't blame them for. 

I was enjoying the peace and quiet of the drive, since most times I drive without either the radio on or without putting on any music...not because I don't enjoy listening to music, because I do, but because because Caitlin and Barbara get worried whenever I put on music I like on, and also because my confidence in driving is pretty much non-existent. Never liked being the driver.

I was enjoying the journey and enjoying the silence, but there was something that I couldn't get out of my mind, despite every rational part of me telling me to close off my heart...or I should say, someone I couldn't get out of my mind...Alexa Bliss...

Ever since I met WWE's "Goddess", she's been like a breath of fresh air to my life in all the right ways. She's been kind, always enjoys being around me and my family, and is just a bundle of joy to be around when able to be around us...but there in itself was also the problem...and I knew what it was...I was falling for "The Goddess" herself...

Admittedly, it would be very hard not to fall for her in terms of looks alone, but I didn't fall for her for her looks. I do love how she looks, don't get me wrong, both naturally and with makeup on (and yes, I've seen her without make-up on, and she still looked beautiful without it), but I fell for the person she is outside of the ring, and for who she is as a whole. To like her just for her looks would be a disservice, or at least that's how I feel.

But...as much as I may like her, more than just a friend despite how short of a time it's been since I met her...I can't be the one to go for her...in the long run, I would only cause her more pain and harm than good...

She deserves someone who can treat her right, someone who can treat her how she's meant to be treated, and someone who can make her smile and feel loved. And even if my sisters or anyone else tries to deny that that description doesn't reflect me, I disagree completely. 

How I am alone is enough of a counter-argument in terms of my...outbursts...I could end up hurting her really badly one day, and it would completely destroy me, just as it would if I did the same to any of my sisters, my pets, or god forbid if I did that to Angel!

"She's better off without me..." I said with a weary sigh...and I could feel some tears fall down my check as I heard myself say without my brain registering it first "...so was Amy...if she hadn't met me...maybe should would still be alive now...."