BTS Sickfics| Volume 1 (requests are CLOSED)

Namjin: I Think I'll Have a Heart Attack pt.2

*Namjoon's POV*

Maybe if I'd payed more attention to the signs this wouldn't have happened.

Maybe if I'd asked more questions this wouldn't have happened.

Maybe if I'd spent a little more time with him this wouldn't have happened.

But it happened.
~

Now I was out here. Dressed in all black. So was everyone else.

Yoongi

Hoseok

Jimin

Jungkook

Taehyung

Manager Sejin

Bang PD.

Everyone in our staff.

Heck even our TXT dongsaengs were here. Along with other groups.

So was Jinnie's entire family.

We seemed to have enough people here for a family gathering, but unfortunately that wasn't the case this time. No. The case was watching a polished mohageny wood casket with a huge bouquet of flowers on top of it being lowered 6 feet into the ground while we all shared fond memories of our eldest brother and my boyfriend to celebrate his short lived life.

💐 Kim Seok Jin💐

December 4th, 1992 ~ August 12th, 2019

Is what the large gray memorial stone said.

It's was eerie, dark, and most of all painful.

I never thought I'd be standing here like this. Seeing my beloved Jinnie like that! Not this young.

I hated it. I hated every gut wrenching second of it.

Why was this happening to the one person who made me a better man? The one person I gave my entire life too.

This wasn't the plan.

We wanted to get married together.

We wanted to live together.

We wanted to start a family together.

We wanted to grow old together.

But now we don't even have a future together.

Because we're apart.

Forever.
~

Rain started pouring down. We all opened up black umbrellas and continued the service.

"This shouldn't have happened." I hear Taehyung say in a broken voice as heavy tears roll down his cheeks.

"I know TaeTae, I know... it was too soon." Yoongi said trying to comfort Tae despite his own crying.

"I don't understand. How did this happen?!" Jimin cries into Yoongi hyung's shoulder. In response our now eldest hyung just caresses the back of Jimin's hair in a gentle and soothing manner.

"You know how it happened bud...
We ALL do." Yoongi hyung says the last part angrily as everyone turns their heads around, staring at me with rage in their eyes.

"I-I don't understand. Wh-What happened?" I asked nervously, tears threatening to fall.

"YOU killed him hyung!" Jungkook says to me angrily. What does he mean? Why would I EVER want to hurt the love of my life?

"DON'T CALL HIM HYUNG KOOKIE!! He doesn't deserve that honor anymore." Yoongi says coldly. I feel my heart sink deep into my chest.

"N-No I would never!! I WOULD NEVER WANT TO HURT HIM! PLEASE I'M SORRY!" I try to yell so they would hear me but it's as if I was muted by the universe.