lost&found | johnil

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dear taeil,

have you ever thought that life was somehow exhausting? as if it drains everything out of you but won't have the mercy to give an end to it?

i never thought like this and i would like to say i never will but things are changing a lot and that makes me feel lost

sometimes i ask myself if you ever existed as nobody seems to remember you

sometimes i forget what you look like since it has been some time and most of all i don't seem to remember your voice but i know it was a quite beautiful sound

we don't have many pictures together. we thought it was cool to rebell against it when our moms asked us to stay still and smile our brightest smiles

i wish we didn't

i wish we had captured every moment but i had thought that it didn't matter

i thought we wouldn't forget anyways and if we did eventually forget we would just create new memories to look back on

i know you are somewhere and at this point it doesn't matter how much longer it will take but as i promised i will always find you

love

johnny