Courage (SnK AU)

Intro

I always noticed him. The way he stood, the way he spoke, hell, even what time he got to class most of the time. I always crushed on people easily, and I was quite the creep once I had one. But this boy seemed to be the first of his kind. He was shy. Everyone I had ever known was full to the brim with confidence, unlike me.

When he first arrived as a shadow for our class in the seventh grade, I liked him right off the bat. He wasn't a talkative person, and I suspected it was only for fear of embarrassment, which happens to be my reason. Since he knew no one, he looked absolutely terrified. He'd blush and avoid eye contact as much as possible, not to mention his incessant sweating. I couldn't blame him. I act nearly the same way when I shadow at schools with nobody I know.

Of course, I never even spoke to him once. "Why not?" you may ask. Well, my friend, I would if I could. Even if I had the courage to even walk up to him, I would freeze up and my mind would go blank, whether I had thought about what to say or not. It's common for me to wish for some damn confidence.

People who aren't close friends might think I am quiet. My friends, however, would know for a fact that I talk WAY too much, as they have said on multiple occasions. I guess I only talk like that to people I know. I think it's because I know what they want or don't want to talk about if they're my friend, and if they're a stranger, I don't know what they want from me.

Anyways, all I could do around the kid was blush, stare, and, if he ever glanced my way, smile slightly. He always seemed overwhelmed, what with half the grade surrounding him with pure curiosity sparking within their eyes. (A/N: guys chill this is like a super small school! there's only like thirty five kids in my grade)

After the day ended, the tall boy was gone, and I was hopeful that he would arrive the next year. Alas, he did not, and I was definitely disappointed. Living further away from anyone in my school meant that I likely would never see him again.

Normally, this would be the end of the story. I stop crushing on him and replace him with some anime character. But I didn't. He stayed in my heart, but I wish he didn't, so that I wouldn't have to face the agony of not seeing him. I tried to tell myself that I didn't like him anymore, but I knew that it wasn't true.

And then it was the first day of high school.
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Ahh this is a fic I wrote a while ago on my laptop and I just decided to post it because what the hell and here we are
Please rate but honestly I'm only posting it for the sake of posting
(I'm probably not going to continue this)((unless you really think it's good))