hey my pretties
how have you all been? i came to say sorry for not writting. lets just say i havent been having a good time. i lost the person i cared about most in this life. i feel like ive lost my ability to smile, i feel like i have fallen into a dark hole that i cant bring myself out of. i havent been writting because i feel like my life is over. i have been writing because i think of most of my writting when im sad just that i havent gotten the time to type them down. i just wanted the best for that person and i thought i was doing the right thing by protecting her but i guess i was actually ruining her. She told me i did ruin her and that she didn't give a fuck. I guess i did have to forgive her every time but she couldn't forgive me this one time. I noticed that my mom was right there is no such thing as a sister. Theres friends and great friends but there is no thing you could call your sister unless its your blood sister. So i guess im screwed i will never have a sister
