A Story Of Another Black Girl (Chapter 2)

The Abandoned House

After her ordeals with Rico she was changing, it fucked her over physically & mentally. She's now 12 but wasn't that innocent child, with a bright future, & big heart anymore. She had already been sent to Green Oaks Juvenile Detention Center multiple times, skipped school often, & was already on probation. She turned in someone nobody in her family recognized, & nobody understood why she was changing for the worse. She didn't value, or respect herself, but most of all she didn't love herself. She started to feel worthless, ugly, & used. It was like she was damaged goods, she start falling into all the wrong guys, & she knew it but she couldn't help what she was doing. She start looking for love in anyone, or anything, the love she wasn't getting at home. No father to look up too, her mama & her had a non existent relationship, no real friends, no grandparent, no one. She started having sex to replace the love she lacked, fucking to fill some type of void she had in her heart. Hoping maybe she can make someone love her, maybe she could turn a bad guy good & everything else would fall into place. It was summertime again & she had about 3 friends in counting. She was on curfew probation because she had a habit of staying out, or sneaking out till 3 am so her summers were cut short around 4pm. So anytime she was outside she tried to make the best of it, her & her mama was on bad terms so she always dreaded going in at 4pm. One day she met with Marcia one of her closest friends at the time & they did what they normally do. Talk shit, roam around outside, & run behind boys. She & Cia were dying to get into something, hell anything & it looks like they finally found it. They met Redd & Mann, see they both been knew Mann from around the neighborhood but Redd was new. She had never met or seen Redd around before & he was cute. Redd was short, light-skin complexion, he had a low cut, with a smooth subtle voice. He was very attractive, so he caught her eye out of the two of them. So when it came time to split up & do their own thing it was a no brainer she went with Redd. Cia went with Mann & she went with Redd. Her & Redd walked around getting to know each other, he fed her a-lot of dreams & made a-lot of promises. Ones like she was pretty, & how he wanted to fuck with her, & when she suggested that he just wanted to fuck he declined. But she heard that all before, she wasn't no fool, or was she? Or did she just ignore the lies, & signs because the lies felt better then what she knew the truth was? Redd was very gentle, & sweet, he didn't disrespect her, & he seemed to follow his own wave. She knew he was cordial with Rico & all of his friends but she didn't act like them. He didn't follow the hype about her, he wanted his own opinions & this is what made her like him. He was laidback, cool as cucumbers & playful. She was uncomfortable about the playing at first because that's how it started with Rico. Laughs & play fighting until it turned real. Redd was different though, he wasn't rough, he didn't press her to have sex, he wasn't overly touchy, & she liked this. There was kissing here & there throughout the day but he let everything happen naturally, that's how it was supposed to happen. She had a good time with him but everything had to be cut short, she had to go in so if was good bye for now. The next day it was all butterflies, she left out early looking for him until they met again. The entire day is was the same thing, it felt good to be with a boy & not be nervous, scared or intimidated. Redd was most certainly more mature then the others. Herr time to come in the house was slowly approaching, & she wasn't ready to go in yet. They were having fun, & she couldn't call it a night yet. What the fuck fun was she going to have if she has to go in at 4? So when 4 came she didn't go in. She decided to stay out, what's a couple more hours, it's summertime anyways. Bad mistake..... 4 turned into 6 & 6 turned into 10, when she was with him it seemed as time had flown by. By the end of the night they were inseparable, following each other around constantly playing until it turned into something different. The constant kissing turned into rubbing & she liked it. They both were young, dumb, or horny with no where to go. Her & Redd ended up meeting back up with Cia & Mann & they all walked around for a while. They came across a abandoned apartment in the back of Parkview with the windows boarded up. "I bet yall I can punch this bitch out", Redd said, everybody was laughing but he was serious. He wrapped a t-shirt around his hand & it didn't take long until he shattered the window. Glass was everywhere, she looked around to make sure no one was around. Redd pulled back the board & was the first to enter, he held it back for her, then Mann & Cia followed. Everybody knew what they were going in for so they split up again, Redd & her going into one room & Cia & Mann in another. Redd picked a room in the front & they both laid down, ready to do what they both came for. He was sucking & biting her neck passionately, & started to put his hand in her pants. He definitely knew what he was doing & she started to moan. Eagerly he pulls her pants down & spreads her legs. It didn't hurt like it did before, it was pleasure behind it now at least that's what she made herself believe. She was enjoying herself but not for long, because what she didn't know was Mann & Cia were done & already back out the window telling people they were in there & it wasn't long before Mann & another Neighborhood boy named Fatman snuck inside of the window & found them. Seeing more then one boy come in the room gave her flashbacks to the night with Rico. She immediately trying covering herself scared of ending in the same position she found herself in before, scared he might let them touch her. But he didn't, he made them leave but instead of staying behind to make sure she was okay he left. He left with the other boys & back out the window he went leaving her in a dark, hot, abandoned room. He didn't even bother to turn around to check, he didn't even hand her, her clothes. She frantically panicked to put on her panties when more boys came in. She knew it was too late & the word already had gotten out. In came some other boys she knew from the neighborhood, Quan, Rashad, & some other friends of his. She see's them but is not fully dressed so she quickly held her pants in front of her. Quan walking to her with his flashlight on playfully snatches her pants down & is making fun of her with the others. They leave & she is left alone again, sad, embarrassed & hurt. He left her & didn't care, why didn't he stay to make sure she wasn't bothered? As she gets dressed she passes them on her way back to her building, they're laughing, mocking her, & teasing her. She sees Redd, & they both locked eyes, he isn't laughing or teasing her, his face is full of regret. Maybe he cared enough to keep her from being taken advantage of but just not enough to make sure she was okay after. She went back to the detention center for curfew violation & didn't see much of him after. This was her first encounter with someone who cared but just didn't care enough, he could have helped her, but he helped himself instead.