A finite space called "Me."

Day one: The daily life of "Me

I am me. I am a boy my name is Ulta in this narrative. I have long dark hair, I want to be a nice person but what I think is most important is that I feel lost. Today is 8/23/19 7:51 p.m. Is this a diary? Perhaps but what I want to do is to make people happy if they find this. I want to learn in this place called home. To learn what I love and dear most is mathematics. I am no poet, I ramble on about random stuff if I can with friends or teacher if I can. SO if you came here for a story well... just stay for the insight of a confused and lamentful person. Now let's get back on track. What I want is 1. To make people happy. 2. Learn math. and 3. To know who I am. 

What do you dream of? I dream of things that are odd in most situations. A raw imagination of what I want to say. Who am I, Why do I live, Who should I cut off from to be happy, why do I think this way, do I look nice with long hair. That type of stuff. My friend told me that she dreams of peoples futures like for me to work in a lab, alone yet happy, have a few pets, keep in touch with other from high school, the norm for she I think of and you know what? I hope she's right. For every bad think I might see in her I see five million good things she can bring to me and others with her positivity. I see her the best person someone can be caring, nice, lovely all of those words you can say. She is one lets say three people who I care about in this school. If you don't mind, let's talk about the other two, yeah? 

Let's talk about my best friend who is always a fluffy ball of joy that you can hug and care about on a day that you just got robbed. That's my best friend he brings that much positivity with him. I have been friends with him as long as I can remember which might be sad for I have a terrible memory but let's talk about him for now. He is what I call “The harem king” because anytime I see him he has a girl clinging on to him if the time has for it. He is a truly nice person like she is and who is an example of what a person can be. He will come and save people I know that. He completes a fate not even the heavens can touch, refilling a fate me, a proxy can't even think of saving from oneself. Also I like anime if that helps with people reading this and thought that was clever. I am not smart nor am I deep but I feel like I can push something if I try hard enough. He also is smart by my stance and what I can see. I see no cracks on his persona and I hope that's his true self for if it's not and he’s hurting, I will cry. Cry as the wired hold us and not letting me see him for what I want him to be. Just a nice bro who I love as much as the other. A nice storybro.

This one is kinda hard to pinpoint actually she is really nice but hard to figure out. “You don't seem to understand.” is the best way of describing her. She might be ideal in a way. She is someone who you can talk with about the molest button in a game and she still wants to know what happens when most people who would be in shock as to a button like that in a game but thats her. I think she's admirable because of her cool head and understanding of the situation. I just don't know what to say that would grab the feeling of it. Maybe “Just Lain” is good enough.  

Let's give them a name. First girl is Rena, the guy would be Kazuma, and the last girl would be Lain. Him being Kazuma is really just shits and giggles from the show Konosuba, Mayuri is from Steins;Gate for being so hard to pin down but somehow fill her role almost to the i in my eyes, and Rena this one is hard to explain not for being hard to explain quite the opposite but not putting so much as why she fits it so well when I thought of it. Platonic is the best word in my mind but that might be too much I think because I don't really know how to feel about it. My happiness is filled with her around and I wouldn't know how to just put it. I just wanna be around her and talk about what happened today but those moments are far and wide without others around. Mayuri has been the one who has been recently telling what happens on the day to day which is nice trusting me. 

I wonder what else I could talk about tomorrow. Well I might see you tomorrow or not who knows. Maybe I can talk about what I like. 

>Well this is a mess huh?