A finite space called "Me."

Day five: Light and a flower.

A small light burns into my mind. I don't really remember where or when but I see it a lot when I sleep. A mix reality and fiction really. Sometimes it's hopeful like me and my friends going somewhere as simple as the mall and getting clothes other time it's painful to imagine happening to me like dying before my parents and watching them in 3rd person as they mourn and it just feels wrong. I like to think even if its painful and bad because I can find a revelation just by thinking which is cool. I named this light recently. Its name is normality. Simple but perfect for what I think my mind is trying to say. Just stay that way and change with others the best way you can. I don't need to pretend every day is the best day ever but I still do anyways. Just think of a single thing that you hold dear, What do you see? For me what I saw first was a happy girl just waiting on a small mountain of garbage. A somewhat deep orange but not too deep just kinda good mix. A white dress and hat with a bit a purple and blue. I don't know how long I really knew about her. Hell my whole life just kinda feels like a fever dream whenever I think like this. Still I keep going knowing I will never met her after all she is fake but why should I care about that? Because fiction is very different from reality. If someone suddenly change like that how would other think of them? Well why should I care and why am I make such question to me and others. Is this supposed to be a trade for my lack of memory. To question like a dumbass and never find them like this. What am I even doing. Well just ranting and listening to some touhou like Parsee and Mokou. Maybe thinking like will give my dream or will it just set me up to meet the Leviathan with its green jealous eyes. Lol maybe even turning to pure furry. K I‘m finished with my ranting. Still would like yall to be happy,