Complications

Chapter 8: Possible Forgiveness

Guys I'm just letting you know that this story is going to be short because I'm running out of inspiration. I have no inspiration so *sigh* when I come up with something after I finish this I will be sure to write it.

Break up music has become my life. I haven't touched Omegle.

It's been a month and we already had Thanksgiving break and today is the first day back.

We're all at lunch and I always find myself looking at Caleb, just making sure he's okay.

I know now that I love him, that once again I fell too easily.

He grabs a girl who I know as Sarah and he kisses her.

My heart falls to the floor. I drop my head on the table and allow my blonde hair to curtain me from the evil feelings of love.

Love is the most powerful thing in the world. It's a gift and it's also a weapon.

"I can't believe he just did that." Russell says.

"You wasted your time." Collin mutters angrily.

The bell rings, signaling the end of lunch and I go racing out there.

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I stayed in the library for three hours after school just to get away from him because he waits in my spot after school.

I exit the building and it's snowing heavily, heavily enough to make me nervous to drive home. Heavy enough to make my Mom and siblings freak out about me not being able to make it home.

Well it is December...

I head to my car, spilling my hands into the sleeves of my hoodie. I get in my car and put the key in, and I swear I could cry. It doesn't make a peek.

Seriously? I have had a terrible day! I do not need this!

I get out and go to open the hood.

"It won't work." A voice says behind me.

I whip around to meet his blue-green eyes.

He's leaning casually against his blue Saturn, his hands shoved into his pockets.

"Aren't you aware that we're probably seconds away from getting a blizzard? What are you still doing here?" I ask Caleb.

"I was waiting for you." He says.

"Well you've just wasted your time. You are the last person I want to be talking to right now."

He frowns. "I disconnected your Terminal Wires."

"Why?" I snap.

"Because I'm tired of you ignoring me." he walks over to me.

"Go away. I'm not going to forgive you."

"Madeline." He says. "I'm sorry, okay? I'm sorry I lied to you. I'm sorry for kissing Sarah to get your attention. I messed up. Why won't you forgive me?"

"Because you don't care." I snap.

"I do." He insists.

"Really?" I turn to face him. "Am I attractive?"

He frowns. "No."

"Do you want to be with me for eternity?"

"No."

The hurt in my heart is strong as I ask, "Would you cry if I walked away?"

"No".

I reconnect the terminal wire to my car, fighting tears. I can't stay here anymore. I will not give the person that just shattered my heart the satisfaction of seeing me cry. As I turn to leave, he grabs my hand.

"Stay." He says.

"Get the fuck away from me!" I snap.

"You're not attractive. You're breathtaking." He says. "I don't want to be with you for eternity, I need to be with you for eternity." He takes a deep breath. "And if you walked away...I wouldn't even get to cry, because I would die first."

I stare into his eyes for the longest time. I don't know what to say.

"Please." He whispers. "Forgive me."

It starts to snow harder. I open my mouth three times and then look over my shoulder at my car.

"I have to go. Just let me think things through. Please?"

"Only if you text me when you get home and tell me you are alive."

"You have to text me first." I reply.

"Deal." he says.

I get in my car and head home.

When I walk in the door, Mom flips out and pulls me into her arms.

"I'm so glad you're okay!"