Zak's POV
I have no idea why I am on this earth...
No one loves me, No one cares...
Why do people say 'Stop Cutting' When it's an addiction just like drugs.
Which means I can't stop.
I won't stop.
That's a way I stay happy, other than listening to music and Being with my only Friend...
Serenity Hendrix
I smiled just thinking about her.
I may or may not have had a slight crush on her for a while. I like her more than she thinks I do.
I wrote in my journal:
"Why is all he asks
You through mean words at him
Yet he tries to be nice but your words just feel like shards of ice
Why is all he asks when you call him things he's not but yet you still call Thott
When he pulled the trigger to his head and his whole life is on a thread
All he thinks is that you want him dead
If he were to die you would be the one asking why?"
I am in bed trying to sleep but I have no idea how to go to sleep without crying to myself.
I decided to go to my drawer and grab my blade right under my journal which is under my underwear and socks.
"This will make it better" I whispered as I cut my arm with many scars. I hide them by wearing sweaters or long shirts.
I don't give a fuck because no one cares!
Only people who know what I'm going through are people who understand and have the same problems as me. Rarely anyone does and it's normally people who are bullied or lost someone they loved dearly.
The reason I cut is because Big-ašs Jocks normally beat me into a pulp for who knows why before or after school. They always call me 'freak!' or 'Asshole!' or 'Gay Bitch!' Most of the time I just wish I can sleep and not wake up forever. I'm not even Gay. I'm not a homophobe but I just don't like guys that way. I actually I fact love gay couples, I just don't want to be with a guy.
No one would notice I'm gone.
No one will care for me.
No one wants me here.
That's why I get beat up every day by The Football team.
I have been skipping meals by saying, ' I already ate' or ' I'm not hungry'.
I'm weeping to myself and I'm feeling tired.
Soon I drift into sleep.
- Morning-
*Beep*
*Beep*
*Beep*
*Beep*
I woke up to my phone ringing.
'Serenity Hendrix! XD'
I smiled.
"Hello?" I answered the phone.
"WAKE UP SLEEPYHEAD!" She practically screeched into the phone.
"Woah. Be more quite now..." I attempted to hush her.
"Okay well you should wake up and I will pick you up."
"I will if you give me enough time to get dressed because I'm... Uh.. In my underwear..." I told her.
"Fine. Half an hour."
"Thank you!" I chimed.
"Okay I'm leaving now so hurry up!"
I hung up the phone and decided to get dressed.
I put on back skinny jeans and a t-shirt.
Over the T-shirt I put on a blue sweater.
I slipped on black vans and walked out the door.
"Hey get in!" I heard someone say.
"Hey" It was Serenity.
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