Trapped

Tried

I looked in the sink. My faith was at high expectations. My heart beating fast.

" I'm home!!!" Randi yelled out.

A mined sigh left my lips. I tried to hold the tears in. I walked over to Randi from the bathroom. He sat his bag on the bed .

" everything ok?" He asked.

I broke into tears.

" it's never going to happen never. We are never gong to be a family!" I yelled . He hugged me.

" babe what's wrong?" I pulled away from him and went into the bathroom. I picked up the preg test from the sink and handed it to him.

"Oh" he sighed.

" um........ It's ok.... We'll just have to try again... Hey, hey" he hugged me.

" we can create a family, we can do it!" He said.

I smiled and pulled away.

" one more time. I can't deal with it anymore. If it's a negative again next time, Im giving up."

He sighed and walked out of the room.

I walked after him.

" what do you want from me Randi!"

He turned and looked at me.

" I want you to stop with the baby thing. In the space of two years, we've gone through 8 preg tests. No wonder nothings happend."

" he's gone Randi, my 8th baby is gone. In the space of two years, we could have had bloody 8 children, I mean don't you under stand." He walked over and wrapped his arms around me.

" at least we've tried." He reassured me.

" mabey it's time for me to go to the doctor?" I nodded.