Ilomilo [}Billie Eilish{]

Chapter three

I rubbed my eyes and looked around the near-empty bar. I was so tired but I didn't want to go back to the room, I knew I needed to or I'd have another drink. So I got up and made my way to the room, on my way I saw someone in Billie's merch on and felt so angry. Once in the out room I got in bed and Troian rolled over putting her arm around me, I kissed her quickly and I closed my eyes hoping for sleep.

I woke up and went into the kitchen to Tom crying. "No!" He yelled.

"Hey. What's going on?"

"I want a famich," He said wiping his eyes.

"Calm down baby, look." I walked over to a frustrated Troian who was holding his plate. I took his toast and put the vegan egg on it and some ketchup, then a piece of cheese. "Here," I said kissing his head.

"Thanks, mommy." He sniffled.

"No problem baby boy." I smiled. "Morning," I said to troianwho passed me a cup of coffee.

"I'm sorry, I tried."

"It's ok," I said sitting on the couch, she sat beside me.

"I'm not going to be a good mother." She mumbled.

"You will be troian," I said kissing her lightly.

"I can't even feed tom." She rolled her eyes.

"You just need to think outside the box with kids."

"Alright." She mumbled. "Should you be drinking coffee?" She said looking at me.

"I'm dangerous without coffee, you know this." I smiled and she smiled back nodding. She cuddled into my side as we watched whatever was on the TV I wasn't even paying attention.

"I need to shower." She said and I nodded kissing her. "Wish you could join me." She pouted.

"Be good and well see what the night brings," I said grabbing her ass as she got up making her giggle, she was in the bathroom for about five minutes when my phone rang. "Hello?"

"Hey." I pulled the phone from my ear. Fuck sakes.

"What?"

"You're in LA?" She asked.

"So what?"

"You didn't even think of dropping by before you left?"

"Charlie I haven't seen you in years, what the fuck do you want. Stop calling me, when you saw me with Billie you started to call. When I got back from LA the calls stopped, now that I'm back your calling again. Just fuck off and lose my number." I pressed end and tossed my phone on the coffee table. I went out on the balcony and took in a deep breath as I looked around, thoughts of jumping entered my mind. I put my hand on my stomach completely forgetting the idea, I can't take another humans life. And I have Tom... and Troian... I let out a long breath and Tom knocked on the door, I opened it and took him in my arms.

"Mommy, I get sad too." He nodded.

"What?" I asked.

"You're sad. I get sad when you say 'no more pizza'." He said pointing his finger with his hand on his hip and I laughed.

"Yeah, you get sad? Mommy's ok." I laughed.

"And I get sad 'cause I miss Bee." He sighed.

"Its ok baby," I said kissing his head. "We have Troian now."

"But I miss my bee." He sighed.

"Who's bee," Troian asked. Great. I put Tom inside and Troian held the towel around her chest tight as she stood in the doorway. I leaned with my back to the rail.

"My... ex."

"How long did you date?" She asked.

"Off and on... almost a year I guess."

"You still love her?" She asked.

"No," I said to quickly. "We had a huge fight, I went and got drunk... and we hooked up."

"Did you split because of me?" She asked. I shook my head, I couldn't tell her the truth.

"No, we talked and ended it. Then I saw you again the next night... and well here we are."

"Are you sure you still want to get married?" She asked.

"I'm positive Bree," I said reaching out my hand, taking hers I pulled her over to me so I could kiss her.