your effect on me // jenzie

12

"Nobody cres about you, you're not worth it, you suck and the only thing you deserve is to die.."

were the words coming out of Kenzie's laptop, she quickly closed Netflix and took a deep breath

"This is a show, just a show." She whispered 

But those were the exact same words that her father had told her before he left her, Maddie and Melisa to live with his new family in Argentina, and she knew it. She washed her face, took her phone, jumped on her bed and started Facetiming Johnny.

"Hey Kenz" Johnny's face popped on Kenzies screen "Hey Johnny bunny" Kenzie playfully responded. A smile appeared on both their faces. "So Kenzie do you wanna talk about it right now-?" She nodded. Johnny quickly locked his door and jumped on his bed "Whos first" Johnny asked. Mackenzie paused, "You please" He nodded agreeing 

"So.. 3 years ago when I was 12 my mom had this very important meeting. If it went well she would get promoted and she would get twice the money from working the half. Exciting right? No. If she got promoted she would have to move somewhere next to her office, move out of our house, away from us. I was getting bullied and my grades were dropping because I couldn't sleep at night thinking about my mom away from our family. Yeah I know childish. But i was 12!

Anyways my teachers told me if I didn't get my shit together I would have to stay in the same grade the following year. My dad was upset because of how distracted I was so he lied to me saying mom didn't get promoted. I was happy, I started doing good again. But it came the day the actual result came.

She got in. My dad confessed everything and said he was sorry, but i was mad at both him and my mom so I took her laptop and emailed her boss saying she refused to take the door, he said it was fine but there's no turning back. My mom had already quit her old job and i ruined her new one. 

Long story short, we didn't have anymore money. My family was broke because of me. The guilt NEVER went way. I aced my tests but the bullying continued, from just words and pranks they became dangerous and hurtful. They beat me up, got me in trouble, lied to people about me, stole shit from me and threatened me to end mine and my families life. No I'm not the weak nerd that got bullied from middle school to high school, I'm the guy that lost his close friends when they did stuff against him. I fight back but they'll never back off. The middle school 'bullying now turned into a high school 'fight'. It's hard seeing the closest people to you act against you.

If that wasn't enough, my sisters Darian and Maddie moved to Australia for college. Both my parents were disappointed. Lauren is the only person I have. Nobody supports me in my decisions. My parents don't support me doing my music anymore but music is the only thing that keeps me alive, I started playing the guitar from when I was very young. I can't tell them I continued even after they told me no too, or they will take that away from me. No they don't hate me. But it feels like they don't care about me anymore.. it's not easy living with that. I remember my parents, siblings, friends, family everyone thought I would be a star one day and that I would be successful at everything I would try. All that disappeared. Nothing will be the same.A/N [note the lyrics of their song in this paragraph]

Johnny said as a tear rolled down his cheeks. Mackenzies eyes were filled with tears but she blinked them away. 

"Now you tell me Kenz.." Said Johnny 

Kenzie took a deep, long breath and said..

You'll have to wait and see hehe