if I died would All My Exes miss me

chapter 3 plan in progress

( Pamela ) I had to make it seem all real he couldn't be fake at all they had to believe it they had to believe that I had passed away that has to come to my funeral somehow the only the one that cared of course. ( Pamela) it was going to be hard to do this but I knew I could come up with something somehow I had to see who's really cared about me I know it's malicious to mess with people's feelings. ( Pamela) but wouldn't you say that they messed with my feelings as well maybe this is come back for the ones that hurt me. All of them dead of course somewhere actually nice to me. ( Pamela) also besides all the planning I was doing I have to find a way for them not to find me I had to go and hide away but I also had to keep an eye on them maybe I would make a disguise.

( Pamela) think of a whole new look for myself and go to the funeral myself as a person that actually knew myself but actually I'd be myself obviously if that makes any sense at all I would want to see who actually came and who didn't even show up. ( Pamela) I thought that was a great plan I was going to give myself a makeover and access if I was someone else I'd be watching them the whole time and when I wanted to I would surprise them and let them know it was me. ( Pamela) but I think I would pick one of them and then let all of them know pick the one that actually care for me and cried at my funeral the one that actually still had feelings for me. ( Pamela) so as I was planning out the funeral and what to write in the obituary in the newspaper I was also planning out my new makeover I look I had to come up with in order for me to attend my own funeral . ( Pamela) it was creepy at Lee's thinking that I was going to go and do this after all I doubted myself at times and said I shouldn't do this at all I'm going to go and all of these people are going to be mad at me .

( Pamela) but another voice in my head keep telling me to go through with it go and see who I actually showed up who actually cared for you who actually didn't show up and didn't give a shit what happened who actually still hated you this whole time . ( Pamela) that's the part of me that kept me going kept me wanting to do all of this I almost had everything done with the obituary now I just had to figure out the whole funeral thing to make it seem real. ( Pamela) luckily after convincing one of my friends that actually worked at a funeral home to lend me some things and help me with this whole plan by paying him she went through with it and helped me. ( Pamela) of course the whole time we were planning everything out he still thought I was crazy but he kind of understood but he still didn't think it was the right thing to do. ( Pamela) he was also scared to lose his job but I assured him that nothing would go wrong and that he would not lose his job if he let me use all of the stuff and that I would pay him back very good .

(  Ron ) I don't see the point why you have to do this to get attention or what is the point what is it all going to bring out at the end when they all be super pissed at you I mean that's all I think is going to happen and that it was going to rescue me of course . ( Pamela) who else would rescue me who else would let me all this stuff and put their job in Jeopardy just to help me out sort something in my life of course she would that's why you're a good friend . ( Ron) I'm also one of your only friends you don't really have other friends and only because I care about you I'm going through all of this if something happened I swear we will stop being friends. ( Pamela) don't swear on something you can't keep of course I won't let you lose your job I promise you this will all be over soon and then I won't ask you to do anything crazy for a long time at least. ( Ron)  how many times have I heard that one before fine I guess I'll help you but you have to make sure you don't ruin any of this stuff you make sure you don't get caught or I don't as well.

( Pamela) don't worry you can trust me nothing's going to go wrong I just really need to do this I need to see who shows up who actually cares about me and who actually doesn't even care at all ( Ron) and what if no one shows up I'm only saying. ( Pamela) I'm pretty sure some people will show up but if no one shows up then I know that they never cared for me at all and that's it I will and I will never ask you I promise this time to do anything crazy like this. ( Pamela) or better yet when I decide to do something crazy I won't involve you in it okay just do me this favor and help me do this help me get through this patch of my life. ( Ron)  like I said I'm going to help you anyways so what do we have to do first how we're going to plan this out to make sure it actually goes through well and they're actually believe that you have passed away. ( Pamela) I'm glad you asked that I bring all these papers and notes so it could make it easier for you I have it all laid out here and if I did everything right it should all work without any wrongs.