o u r s o n g | j u n g r i

thirty-two

/kim yerim's pov/

"girls, wake up. this is an awarding, not some funeral." sooyoung unnie clapped her hands, hoping our attention will be on her.

"let's set aside those first and focus." joohyun unnie snapped out of her thoughts. they all nodded.

we are currently at the awarding. i had to retouch before coming here because of that.

thankfully, they are seated far away from me or maybe, sm did their magic again.

"... red velvet!" everyone suddenly looked at us while we were clueless. they were congratulating us. i was bowing back but still confused.

haechan pointed the stage. ah, we won?

i gestured joohyun unnie to the stage. we walked there and then the announcers gave us the trophy. i glanced at the big screen at the side. we won at the best female group.

suprisingly, i didn't felt happy.

"uhm, 2... 3... happiness, we are red velvet. first, thank you so much to our pd-nims, our ceo and manager-nim." if we weren't in stage right now, i would roll my eyes at joohyun unnie's word. "and thank you too to our dear reveluvs. we..." she suddenly stopped. i looked at her. she was teary. i met seulgi unnie's eyes who is also in verge of tears.

we all know that it isn't because of the award.

it was because of something.

"... wouldn't be here without you. thank you so much for supporting us. we love you." sooyoung unnie continued. we bowed again while muttering thank you to the announcer.

we went down and met our manager who is wearing a serious expression. it was like a warning. we gave him the award before going back to our seat.

we also won two more awards. we performed with ease. i purposely didn't look at the artists' direction so i wouldn't be distracted. when they performed, i forced myself to look like i'm fine. i didn't look at the stage or at the big screen. i fixed my gaze to the audience.

the awarding ended with us having three awards.

we were supposed to be happy but we're not. we faked our smiles so we can get through this event.

we got the awards but we lost something more precious tonight.

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[11:34 pm]

jung jaehyun: are you okay, noona? -hae

yerim: yeeep! why are you texting me using jaehyun's?

jung jaehyun: they got all our phones except the hyungs. :(

yerim: i'm sorry. i feel like it's my fault.

jung jaehyun: no, it's okay. they're just being cautious, i guess?

yerim: because of me. sorry :(

jung jaehyun: it's fine. none of us are affected. we have 0 lovelife lmao. they only let the old ones because they think they're wise.

jung jaehyun: @smtown, think again.

yerim: hahahahahahaha

yerim: thanks for making me laugh. :)

jung jaehyun: no problem, noona. i hope everything turns out okay.

yerim: i hope so too.

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a/n:

and we're down to the last three chapters. ARE U EXCITED?!

-CA 🖤