o u r s o n g | j u n g r i

thirty-one

[7:38 am]

bae joohyun: yerim, where are you?

yerim: i'm at the restroom.

bae joohyun: what the hell are you doing there?

yerim: i'm so nervous, unnie. he'll hate me.

bae joohyun: for freak sake, the awarding is in the evening and IT'S 7:39 IN THE MORNING!

yerim: i'm freaking out, unnie! what am i gonna say? he won't do anything right? as long as there are cameras?

yerim: i super miss him.

bae joohyun: calm down and come here before manager comes back.

yerim: aren't you nervous that you will see tae oppa again?

bae joohyun: of course. he'll hate me too. i left him hanging. i didn't want to but we have no choice, don't we?

bae joohyun: of course not. why would i be?

yerim: because you like him?

bae joohyun: i do and i miss him so much.

bae joohyun: he's the least of my priorities right now. calm down and come here.

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[6:34 pm]

yerim: uNNIE, I FORGOT MY NECKLACE AT OUR ROOM.

kang seulgi: and?

yerim: I NEED TO GET IT. TELL MANAGER I'LL COME BACK. I SWEAR.

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/kim yerim's pov/

i pushed the button up for the elevator.

please, please, please be freaking faster. manager will spit fire at me again.

after two minutes, it finally came down and opened.

"yeah, tae hyung is- yerim?"

i diverted my eyes from the floor and looked up.

oh my god.

of all people, jungkook and the gang?

"i- bye!" i ran as fast as i could. my heels aren't helping me but thank heavens, my dress are not long gown.

"wait." i felt a hand on my arm, gently tugging me. i shrugged it off but he just won't let me go.

"yerim. look at me." his voice were gentle and sweet. i felt my eyes water.

this is wrong.

"please, baby?"

you are hurting him, yerim.

i can't do anything to stop it.

it's better to just cut everything, right?

i breathed in before looking at him, which i regret immediately. he was crying. jungkook was crying for me. i'm so sorry.

"what's wrong, yerim? please tell me." he pulled me closer and held both of my shoulder.

"jungkook..."

i'm so sorry.

"... let's end this."

my throat hurts as i stop myself from crying. my heart is breaking so much and i bet his too. i need to do this. for him, for us.

"what? why- no, no. baby, let's talk, okay? i'm so sorry. please, don't leave." jungkook hugged me tightly. my arms are by my side, not giving back his embrace.

"please. yerim, i love you so much. don't go. don't leave me. i'm sorry. did i bother you too much? did i do something wrong? tell me." i felt his tears dropped on my shoulder.

i can't help but cry. it's so hard to see him like this. the man i love is begging for me to stay.

but i can't.

it's me versus everything he worked hard for years.

it's him versus my dreams.

we will both be ruined if we choose each other.

i would rather give way for his hard work. never mind my heart. never mind my feelings. jungkook will find someone who can fight for him. someone who can always choose him. someone who can show her love for him without any restriction. someone who is more suitable for him. someone who can love him without hesitating.

someone who is not me.

"no. i don't love you anymore so, stop annoying me." i pushed him with my all. he looked at me, shocked and sad.

i tried to walk past him but he held my hand, making me look back at him again.

jungkook knelt in front of me. his head hanging low while both of his hand is holding on my hand like it was his only life source.

"please, yerim. please. i can leave everything. just stay, please. don't leave me alone. i can quit this. just tell me the words, baby. if that will make you stay. i love you so so much, yerim." he said between his sobs.

i bit my lower lip.

i love you so much too and that's why i have to leave you. just hate me or better yet, forget me.

but i know that i won't and i can't forget you.

you will always be my bunny prince.

"i'm sorry. i can't." i pushed his hands away before leaving him.

and in that moment, i knew that i also left his life.

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a/n:

don't kill me pls. :(

-CA 🖤