I Confess - Ironstrange

The "Date"

Stephen's POV:

"What do you think I should wear to the date?" Tony asked as he posed in the mirror with a brand new expensive suit. 

I starred at him in the mirror and was just struck in aw at how beautiful he looked. I felt jealousy course through my veins. I knew he had to go on that date, it seemed pretty important, like something he couldn't just pass. 

But even knowing that it would be the right thing to do, it still stung to know that I was sending the love of my life away to some isolated area where Pepper could do anything to him. 

"I don't know? Whatever you want" I shrugged as I helped tie a bowtie around his neck. But before I could even tie it tightly he shook it off, and tore off the suit. 

"I can't wear that! Way too good!" He nicely hooked the suit back on the rack in his closet, then searched for another one. "I need something that's not too good or expensive, but not as cheep because I don't want to show up a mess."

"Why should you even care though, weren't you planning to end it?" I asked as I helped him pull on another coat. 

He sighed, quite loudly and I knew there was something else to this dinner than just a dinner.  "What is it honey?"

He turned to face me and I could tell by the look on his face it was going to be harder than just a normal break up and divorce.

"I know how much this dinner means to Pepper" he began, "I've planned this for so long, wanting to let her know that I was ready."

I starred at him confused. What did he mean by ready? Was there something he wasn't telling me? I had many questions but I knew I had to keep them in, I didn't want to overwhelm him. 

"Stephen.... I was ready to have a kid."

My gaze stayed blank. My mind was trying to think up of words to say but I couldn't comprehend the words escaping his lips. 

"W-wait, so you're telling me that we were about to have a child with her?!" I tried not to sound too surprised or upset. Because I wasn't upset or anything, I'd expected him and Pepper to have discussed that topic before. 

"I'm sorry for not telling you earlier, it's just hard to-"

"-no, no, no" I interrupted, "It's fine, but now you can't fulfill that dream of yours." 

"It's okay, as long as I'm with you I'll be okay" he smiled, but I could see right through that smile like I was looking through a window. 

I knew how much Tony wanted to be a parent, and all that. I knew that he wanted to pass his teachings to a younger generation. 

"We have Peter now, I'm okay not having another true Stark, a family of three males is alright with me" his fake voice sounded so obvious I just wanted to tell him that I understood. 

I fell back a plopped down on the bed. I gripped the sides of my head and lightly pulled at my hair. Why was this such a hard thing for me to think about. Tony should just end it with Pepper and we would all be happy. But Tony wouldn't, and I know that if I love him I would do anything at all to make him happy, anything. 

What was I even thinking anymore, my mind was running its own marathon of thoughts. Tony took a seat next to me on the bed and placed his hand on my shoulder. 

"Why are you stressing this out so much Steph? I told you I'm already happy with you and Peter, I don't need anything else." he smiled trying to life my spirits but I wouldn't budge. 

"No, Tony I know you better than I know myself and anyone else. You deserve to be happy, and I love you so much and I know that starting a family is all you've ever wanted!" 

He starred up at me with a saddened look on his face. Was what I was saying actually true? Was he really thinking about this? 

"Tell me something Tony" I asked I could tell he already knew what was coming, "are you actually gay?"

He starred down at the floor, his shoulders fell and my expression dropped. "Please tell me" my voice was choking up and my emotions were flying all around the place. 

"I-I..." he started but stopped then took a deep breath, "I-I don't know Stephen."

"Then answer this Stark" he snapped when I gave him the signal of last name bases, "do you love me?"

He paused for a minute which was exactly what I didn't want him to do. Pausing meant he was thinking about it, and you don't think if you love someone unless you strongly do. 

"I do love you Stephen, but I love Pepper too" I gulped, "I love Pepper a lot, but do I know if I love her more than you... no" he replied softly, I buried my face in the palms of my hands and tried to cover up my tears. 

"great" I sighed as I began to pace around the room in thought of what was going to happen. Tony stood up as well trying to get my attention. 

"Look I'm sorry Stephen-"

"-don't you look I'm sorry Stephen me!" I snapped, "I have put my whole heart and love into you, and you treat it like garbage! Not even telling me that you have feelings for someone else!"

He stayed silent, he was out of words. This was a good spot to leave, a great time to exit the scene. 

I stormed off towards the door but felt some resistance, and someone pulling at my shoulder. 

"Please don't leave, I'm sorry Stephen but I can't keep it in anymore, please forgive me" he begged, basically pleading me for approval. I was about to blow fire at him, I hope he was prepared. 

"NO! I AM SICK AND TIRED OF YOU ALWAYS LIEING TO ME! YOU THINK I'M SOME STUPID MAN WHO ISN'T FUCKING CAPABLE OF DOING SHIT. WELL BREAKING NEWS, I AM!" I stopped to take a breath and I could see he was about to chime in and say something, but I cut him off just on time. 

"I HAVE STAYED PATIENT WITH YOU ALL THE TIME, WHENEVER WE WENT INTO DISAGREEMENTS I WOULD BE THE BIGGER PERSON AND CALM YOU DOWN AND BE ON YOUR SIDE! BUT WHAT WHAT DO I GET IN RETURN? YOU BACK STABBING ME AND TELLING ME YOU DON'T LOVE ME ANYMORE!" I starred at him, "Do you know what that feels like? Being told you're loved, being confessed to on a romantic balcony, having danced. Then being thrown away like garbage?" 

He looked super guilty and small, if we weren't in an argument and I wasn't screaming at his face then I would have held him so tight he would have popped. But I was far past that. 

"I don't even care what you do next Stark" I spat, "because no matter how hard I try you'll never see that I was right there."

I turned around and pushed open the door forcefully, "just go to your fucking dinner already and get out of my sight." 

And with that, I was gone. I wasn't sure if he went or not, I was spending the rest of my time at the sanctum. I couldn't thinking about him, and the fight. 

I was scared to see what would happen in the future, I wasn't prepared at all to find out what would happen next.

Hope u all liked the little plot twist to the story! maybe thinking everything will all go okay then a few seconds later everything turns to shit lol. I'm excited to keep writing this, hope ur ready.

-Ironstranger  

(also sorry if there are mistakes lol, way 2 tires :/)