--------- 8/26/2019 -----------
I dreamed about you again and again.
I thought I would forget about you but I didn't.
My heart stings again.
In my dream, we were talking about something.
And then later on you would leave me.
My heart stings but I need to let you go.
I thought I need to know the truth.
I thought I need to ask.
Is it for the best?
--------- 8/27/2019 -----------
It aches me to see the two of you fight
but It also aches me that you didn't really have feelings for me.
I am actually torn between keeping the both of you happy or wanting you to look at me.
It actually hurts when I gave up on my love but then you two had a fight and came to me talking about your problems.
I feel like I want to help but at some point I was in pain
then I talked to her
I listen to her story but it was still because of you that shes hurt.
But I was in pain while listening to her story.
I was in agony when she said shes going to cut off ties even with me. I was thinking of my happiness....I got close to her because we clicked like best friends would, she didn't mind my random talks and she always supported me. she doesnt talk much about her problems but I wanted to be there for her....... I also want her to stay not for his happiness but for mine.
so please....stay.
I don't want another piece of my heart torn.
--------- 8/28/2019 -----------
Every morning I talked to you. but today I just couldnt stand it.
It still stings that you really do like her.
At some point I want you to end this fight so we can all chat happily again but it was a big fight in which you have stopped all communications except thru sms....
I wish I could do something but the only thing I can do is support you and cheer you on and that stings.
it hurts.....but i need to do what makes you happy....
I tried to talk to you normally but I cant thats why I said 'we should talk later, Im already tired...'
I don't want to think anymore
I don't want to think about you please....stop my brain of thinking about you...
