Faith | Kim Seokjin

Chapter #4

Tip: listen to Run while reading.
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I wave at Jin as I enter my resident. My mind full of thoughts questioning almost everything. You know, Scientists say kids grown up with strict parents usually grow up overthinking everything. I can't lie I was honestly overthinking the entire situation. What if Jin just likes to hangout with fans in general? What if he just likes to have fun? What if he sees me as a sister? What if he sees me as his best friend? I started to 'what if' for about an hour and a half before my eyes start to automatically close.

I wake up 1:00 Pm. I check my phone to see 0 texts from anybody. I start to freakout. Is it over? Is that it?. I stare at the wall for a minute and then realize that I need to get myself together because nobody else will. After I do my routine rushing to the kitchen. I start to feel dizzy. I lay quickly over the couch as I start to tear. I quickly wipe my tears and stop before my eyes get red. I go ahead and make myself a peanut butter sandwich. As I munch on my sandwich I hear my mom talking in the phone. I didn't ear-drop.. but I hear her mention something about our cousins coming over. After the call ends, she comes over to tell me they will come over. 'Shit' I think to myself. My cousin is my age. And his brother is my brother's age. I had to escape before I would get to socialize. I get into a hoodie and some jeans with a pair of sneakers while holding onto a couch in order to balance. I then quickly grab a hair-tie and wrap my hair into a ponytail and put on a bucket hat and rush over the door.

I got out of the house successfully  as I get into my car. I send an aggressive sigh indeed I feel heat in me. I aggressively close my hands in anger. Why isn't Jin talking to me? Why are my cousins coming over? Why can't I go over to my friends? I wanted to throw myself off a cliff.

I started my car and roamed around. I then got a text from someone. It was Jin. I closed my phone and decided not to anwser. After 15 minutes I started to feel guilty. It wasn't his fault. I then power-on my phone to see 33 calls and 72 texts from Jin. I start to freakout and prepare a convo in my head or indeed an apology. I mentally slapped myself and got myself together and called Jin.

Me: J.. Jin..?
Jin: mm?
Me: are you mad..?
Jin: do you even know how worried you got me?
Me: I ..am sorry I swear
Jin: I-.. uh-.. ug- well.. what I can I say? How can I not forgive you, princess

I couldn't help myself, I started tearing as how much I felt guilty. I didn't deserve him.

Jin: wait, are you crying?
Jin: hey princess, listen to me.. it's alright to cry. Am sorry if I were ever tough on you-
Me: no no I swear to God it isn't the reason I just-
Jin: tell me then
Me: I usually wake up to see some texts from you. When I woke up today to see none, I shut my phone and decided to forget about it. I thought you forgot about me and just-
Jin: hey. don't you ever think of that again. If you're crying because you feel guilty then please don't. Your friends talked to me about you alot. You aren't a guilty person. and I promise you I'll never do that again. I had stuff to do and my manager didn't allow me to get on my phone. I'll never forget about you. you made me feel like I was the happiest. I have alot of money but I couldn't buy my own happniess. it sounds iconic but I swear its true. the world's money won't be able to make it to your heart. listen princess, it's okay to cry, but when you do. you must remember that there is a Jin that you can rely on. *Laughs* I swear! Yah! Don't you laugh! *Sigh*. Hey, I'll be in front of your house at 5Pm.

Before I could realize Jin ended the call.
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𝘼𝙪𝙩𝙝𝙤𝙧'𝙨 𝙉𝙤𝙩𝙚: 𝙩𝙝𝙞𝙨 𝙨𝙩𝙤𝙧𝙮 𝙞𝙨 𝙨𝙥𝙚𝙘𝙞𝙖𝙡 𝙩𝙤 𝙢𝙚, 𝙄𝙩 𝙨𝙚𝙣𝙙𝙨 𝙩𝙧𝙪𝙚 𝙛𝙚𝙚𝙡𝙞𝙣𝙜𝙨 𝙞𝙣 𝙢𝙚 𝙖𝙣𝙙 𝙛𝙚𝙚𝙡𝙞𝙣𝙜𝙨 𝙄 𝙣𝙚𝙚𝙙 𝙩𝙤 𝙡𝙚𝙩 𝙤𝙪𝙩. 𝙏𝙝𝙞𝙨 𝙞𝙨 𝙢𝙮 𝙝𝙖𝙥𝙥𝙮 𝙬𝙤𝙧𝙡𝙙 𝙖𝙣𝙙 𝙝𝙤𝙬 𝙄 𝙨𝙝𝙤𝙬 𝙞𝙩 𝙩𝙤 𝙩𝙝𝙚 𝙬𝙤𝙧𝙡𝙙. 𝙄 𝙙𝙤𝙣'𝙩 𝙝𝙖𝙫𝙚 𝙩𝙤 𝙨𝙚𝙣𝙙 𝙞𝙩 𝙙𝙞𝙧𝙚𝙘𝙩𝙡𝙮. (𝘼𝙢 𝙨𝙤𝙧𝙧𝙮 𝙩𝙝𝙞𝙨 𝙘𝙝𝙖𝙥𝙩𝙚𝙧 𝙞𝙨 𝙩𝙧𝙖𝙨𝙝, 𝙞𝙩'𝙨 𝙗𝙚𝙚𝙣 𝙖 𝙬𝙝𝙞𝙡𝙚 𝙨𝙞𝙣𝙘𝙚 𝙄 𝙬𝙧𝙤𝙩𝙚 𝙖𝙣𝙮𝙩𝙝𝙞𝙣𝙜. 𝘽𝙪𝙩 𝙥𝙡𝙚𝙖𝙨𝙚 𝙧𝙚𝙢𝙚𝙢𝙗𝙚𝙧 𝙩𝙝𝙞𝙨. 𝙒𝙝𝙚𝙣𝙚𝙫𝙚𝙧 𝙮𝙤𝙪 𝙛𝙚𝙚𝙡 𝙜𝙪𝙞𝙡𝙩𝙮 𝙤𝙧 𝙙𝙤𝙬𝙣.. 𝙜𝙚𝙩 𝙮𝙤𝙪𝙧𝙨𝙚𝙡𝙛 𝙩𝙤𝙜𝙚𝙩𝙝𝙚𝙧 𝙖𝙣𝙙 𝙧𝙚𝙢𝙚𝙢𝙗𝙚𝙧 𝙩𝙝𝙚 𝙜𝙤𝙤𝙙 𝙩𝙞𝙢𝙚𝙨 𝙮𝙤𝙪 𝙝𝙖𝙙 𝙖𝙣𝙙 𝙖𝙡𝙡 𝙩𝙝𝙚 𝙝𝙤𝙥𝙚 𝙮𝙤𝙪 𝙝𝙖𝙙. 𝘼𝙣𝙙 𝙩𝙝𝙖𝙩 𝙮𝙤𝙪𝙩𝙝 𝙞𝙨𝙣'𝙩 𝙛𝙤𝙧𝙚𝙫𝙚𝙧. 𝘿𝙤𝙣'𝙩 𝙬𝙖𝙨𝙩𝙚 𝙩𝙞𝙢𝙚)

Songs to listen to while reading:
Run
Butterfly
Lovely - Billie eilish
Ocean eyes - Billie eilish
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