Aboard England

Don't harm yourself (Kisle)

When we landed I felt really bad. Everything was just getting good. Then this had to happen. I just felt like crying. I've never really had friends but I didn't even think these girls realize how they are my family. To even think Amelia could have died made me... I don't even want to think about it.

We were on our way to the hotel for the night. We would go to Lou moms house tomorrow to surprise them. I was scarred to be honest. What happens if they don't like me. I closed my eyes and leaned my head against the seat of the taxi.

"Kisle, whats wrong?" Louis asked in a worried tone. He took my hand in his and then rested his head on my shoulder. I took a deep breath then opened my eyes. "I'm tired that's all." I said in a soft tone. "Mr. Tomlinson your here." The driver said.

He got out of the front diving seat and opened our door. When we got out the car Louis had our bag already in hand and walking to the lobby. By the time I got inside he had our key and was holding the elevator for me.

"Why so slow kid." He said with a cheeky grin smacking my butt. I jumped and punched him in the arm hard. "Dammit Louis! Stop!" I yelled at him.

He looked a little shocked but turned to a stern face. I could feel my heart drop. "Louis-" I tried to apologize but the elevator opened to our floor and he was gone. Why do I have to be such a hate full person.

Louis and I didn't talk the rest off the night. He didn't hold me like he usually does. I felt so cold. Amelia's in the hospital, Micas freaking out; I wonder how this is going to go with her Dean person. Louis family probably won't like me.

I got up and went to the hotel kitchen. I looked in the fridge and there was nothing but a couple of waters and some chocolates. I went over to the phone and called room service. "Hello room service."

"Um Hi, I was wondering if you had some type of liquor or campaign or something. It's my anniversary and I would like to celebrate tonight since were going to be busy tomorrow." The was a pause then the lady spoke I think we may have some Martian Remy here" I sigh happy that they didn't ask any other questions. "Yes that's fine."

Then she told me it would be up in about 5 minutes. I went to my bag which was in the living area and pulled out my bag of toiletries. I pulled out my orange pill bottle full of Ambien that I got to help me sleep better for soccer because I don't like taking pain killers.

There was a knock on the door I pulled my robe close then went to the door. I pulled my hair out of it's ponytail. People told me I looked older with my hair down.

"Here you are Ma'ma" said a little middle aged woman. She handed me the bottle and I said my thanks and closed the door. I went to the kitchen and sat on the floor with both the liquor and pills in my hand. "What are you doing in here?" I snapped my attention to a sleepy Louis. He looked down at my hands. I try to put it behind my back, it was to late.

He ran over snatched pills and bottle out of my hand. He exsamined my pill bottle then chucked it and the drink in the sink. When the glass broke I felt the hairs on my neck stand. He pulled my up and dragged me over to the bathroom. He's grip on my shoulder was hard and I knew it was bruising. He bent me over the edge of the tube and pulled my jaw open.

"Spit it Out!" He yelled "SPIT IT OUT NOW!!" He screamed again. I started to cry. "I didn't take any!" I yelled back but it didn't help. "NOW! SPIT IT OUT!" He yelled again. "I didn't take anything!" I sobbed. He took his hand off my chin and pulled me into his chest.

I could feel his sobs. I really am a terrible person. "Don- don't e-ever do it ple-pleas-se-" He took a breath and tried to compose himself. "Don't ever hurt your self in anyway."