My Brother's Bestfriend || Han JiSung

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OK first of all, YO 1K?! SERIOUSLY?! GUYS I'M REALLY EFFIN THANKFUL FOR ALL OF YOU, and I'm really sorry for not updating tho :( I was taking a hiatus because so many things came up lately.

So there was a lump on my throat and I told my mom about it and I even joked that I have an Adam's apple hahaha.

My mom and I went to the doctor and he told me that I was suspicious for Papillary Carcinoma, and I MUST undergo surgery because if I don't, then this little lump will turn into Cancer and we don't want that :/

After hearing the news, I told my best friends about it and what surprises me the most is that one of my friends called me and cried haha like dude I didn't even feel that sad about my situation though. I knew and I was confident that I'll be cured and everything is going to be fine.

I don't even understand the people around me being all upset and stuff while there's me who doesn't even give two flying shits about my illness. 😅

October 12,2019
I was already in the hospital and was ready for surgery. I think the operation started 1:30 in the afternoon and ended at 7:15 in the evening where I regained my consciousness.

So basically my WHOLE Thyroid Gland was removed including that little bish, which was the bump.

After a week, the doctor told us about the results of the biopsy and it was positive that the other nodule was malignant (I'm not really sure if what was malignant but I know that there was a part in my thyroid gland that was considered as malignant)

And we were told that I have to undergo RAI i-131 therapy, RAI means Radioactive Iodine and the i-131 maybe means that the 'I' is iodine (obviously) and '131' is the iodine's atomic weight or number I think? Don't blame me, I'm just dumb at theorising things.

Once I take the i-131 pill or whatever, I have to be isolated from people because I'm basically radioactive and I'm going to be alone in my room for almost 2-3 days I think, no cellphones, no laptops, no nothing. Which was fine with me because I'm really motivated that time.

My only motivation is that I have- wait let me rephrase that, I NEED to be free from my illness and I NEED to be well because I have so many things to do when I grow up, I want to meet Straykids, to go to K-pop concerts, to meet my internet friends, to be a certified Doctor, to see my brother getting married and to make my parents proud.

Then one day, we went to Ilo-ilo because we have to find the doctor that will be the one who will guide me during the day that I'll take the RAI therapy. Then, when I was surfing through the net, I saw an article that Woojin left the group and also terminated his contract :(

My heart dropped and my whole world crashed, I don't know what to do. The whole day, I didn't talk to anyone, even to my parents. I was very sad that day, like I lost the motivation to live, I really wanted to give up that day. My chest really hurts like hell, literally. I can't breath properly and my head really hurts so bad that I want to grab a hammer and hit my head with it.

2 days I was kinda OK I guess, I messaged some STAYs I know in the internet that everything's going to be fine and hoping that Woojin will comeback soon.

After taking a nap, I surfed the net again, I found out that Wonho left Monsta X. And my tears literally streamed, I can't control it anymore, I really wanted to give up. The pain on my chest worsen and I literally can't breath to the point that I was choking myself, ignoring the pain I felt on my neck that was operated and haven't healed completely.

Days after, It's still difficult for me to move on, and everytime I clutched my chest (at the part where my heart is) even today which was November 5.

November 5
Today I'm going to the Nuclear Medicine department, and tomorrow will be the day that I'll take the RAI THERAPY which is November 6.

so I'm going to be inactive for I dunno, 2 days, 3 days, a week, a month who knows.

/Well you're not even active in wattpadd then why bother writing this shit if you're not going to update the story mogi -,-/

Dude I'm sorry OK, the Wi-Fi really sucks here in our town okay ￣へ￣ it's not my fault that the signal here sucks ass. I'm writing this SHIT because I want y'all to be conscious about people have diseases like mine or even worse than my disease. And also to encourage fangirls/boys or even normal people to comfort the ones who are fighting their problems is silence because who knows, maybe your family member, the friend who always listens to your rants or giving you advice all the time has a really big problem that they just chose to keep it to themselves (I'm sorry for the grammatical errors).

And I'm really sorry for the fandoms that are really upset about their idols leaving their groups. If only I can all hug y'all personally I'll do it but for now I'll just give y'all virtual hugs (づ￣ ³￣)づ and also kisses
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I'll do my best to continue the story,please root for me, I really need your support and I really want to hear you're opinions and if ever some of y'all have ideas just message me or just comment anything I'll put credits. Thank you!
And also I love you all 157379494868582464946867x,
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