Before I die

A Dream

I am pinned up against the bathroom mirror and when he kisses me I feel electricity run through my whole body. He takes a breath and wraps his arms around my back and in one gentle pull our lips touch again. Then his hands moves up to my cheekbones. That's when the kissing starts to intensify and we start to move like partners in a dance that is written in our DNA. I feel his hand in my hair, how he loves the softness, watching it tumble as he releases it. Our bodies fit together as if we were made just for this, to fall into one another, to feel this natural rhythm. We lock eyes for just a moment, just enough for us to feel safe with one another. Then he's all business, undoing my jeans, pulling them off, kissing from my toes upward, slowly, his hands on my legs, always just a little higher than the kisses. I feel my back arch in anticipation, knowing where his fingers will soon reach. My head rocks back against the wall as he does, the first moan escaping my lips. 'Troy, please, please—' and then once again my lips touched his.
And he was kissing me again. His strong and gentle hands began to stroke me. Everything about him was perfect his lips, his eyes, his hair, his tongue and he was so gentle. Not frightening. Knowing what he was doing. I felt like my body was on fire, and it startled me. "Shhh,"Troy whispered. "Shhh, it's all right, don't worry, just relax."He was slow, rhythmic, gentle, moving down my body, down ...
and I was nothing but my body, there was a sharp brief pain, brief, and then a sweet spasm went through me and I seemed to rise into the air, no more pain, just the sweetness, the incredible, oh it was electrifying and then Troy, panting and my faint moans was the rhythm that kept us going. I pressed him hard against me and as I did, everything intensified. I laughed as he picked me up and I wrapped my legs around him. He span me around and pushed me into a toilet cubicle. I let out a sharp squeal as my back hit the wall. I leaned forward and ripped his baby blue buttoned up shirt apart. As I heard the fabric rip it gave me butterflies in my stomach. He took a break from aggressively kissing my neck to take off his blue denim trousers and as soon as he stood up he broke my bra with his teeth I then pulled off my lace thongs as he pulled off his Calvin Klein boxers leaving us both completely exposed. He kissed me lightly the whole way down my body and then he traced his fingertips on my thighs which made my whole body tingle. He licked the whole way up my thigh and I knew where he was going. I moaned in pleasure. He kissed all the way back up my body and pulled me in so close. As our body's touched we had a true connection it was unreal.
"Oh, oh" I moaned
"You are the most gorgeous person I have ever met Lilliana."
In that moment as he said those words I knew, I just knew that me being sick had to be kept a secret.