I woke up with a banging headache and the sound of Amiya screaming to the top of her lungs. I looked around and realized I was laying on my bedroom floor in nothing but the sports bra I went to sleep in. the lower half of my body was in a lot of pain I could barely move my legs. I got on my knees and crawled to Amiya's crib. I stood to my feet and wrapped my arms around her, I went to my room door and locked it walking around my room I went to the mini-fridge I bought for Amiya"s food and formula and made her a bottle. I fed her and changed her diaper I rocked her to sleep. once she finally fell asleep I gently laid her in the center of my bed surrounded by pillows just I case she moved or rolled. I walked into the bathroom that was joint to my bedroom, I brushed my teeth and got into the shower. once alone in the shower I washed all the dried up blood that was over my body and face and cried and prayed for God to help me. it feels like whenever I pray there is no one listening!! The only reason I'm still alive is because Amiya needs me, and I will never leave her to where she feels alone. at least not willingly!
I got out of the shower and got dressed in gray tights with white and black letters on the leg and the matching shirt I bought from ivy park. straightening my hair and topping it off with a gray headband and my all black jordans.
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Once I got myself together I went to check on Amiya.... as expected she is knocked out. so I went to my closet and pulled out my suitcases and put anything I would need first I packed all my panties and bras next I packed all my pants and shirts and I slipped sandals and slides in the bag to make sure I still had space. Next, I packed my shoes. I stepped out my room checking to see who was in the house and looks as if everyone went to work. I packed everything of Amiya's and took her things to my car I broke down her crib and put is in the trunk of my jeep I lay down the back seats for more space. I packed all her clothes shoes toys and foods I put all her things in my trunk and set her car seat up in the front seat and made sure it was secure. I went back upstairs and picked her up off the bed and carried her to the bathroom I gave her a good bath and lotioned her down. I got her dressed in an all-white onesie with white fluffy socks and a white flower headband.
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Putting her back on my bed I began to take my things downstairs and put them in the car. I was now completely done and I gathered the extra stuff I took my big purs and slid my flat irons, phone charger, deodorant, toothbrushes, keys, laptop, laptop charger, and my hair supplies. throwing the lat bag over my shoulder grabbing Amiya and leaving out the house. I strapped Amiya in her seat and closed her door locking it I got in on my side and realize I left all my money in the house. getting out of the car and sprinting upstairs. I go into the closet and look through all the boxes and found my stash I had at least 100 grand saved from stuff people bought I would take it back and get the money for it, my paychecks and money from different family members I ve saving this money since I was 9 I was about to leave but I turned around I went back upstairs to my parent's room and went into their closet grabbing my dad's gun and his little stash he had about 20 grand there I kept searching and found a safe but it was locked I tried Amiya's birthday ... didn't work.
