If I Fell (narry)

Up close and personal

"How— How did it go?" Eleanor asks her eyes following a very quiet Niall as he got comfortable in his bed.

"Alright I guess." Niall covers himself with the duvet, he needed some alone time.

"I have a question," Zayn pauses. "And it'll be the last one that I will ask about this."

Niall looks over to him and could see so much sadness and anger in his eyes, it kinda intimidated him. "Yeah?" He asks quietly.

"Will you tell Harry now after you.. you terminated it?" He asks, he respected Niall's decision but what he didn't agree on was that he never told Harry.

"Why would he?" Eleanor furrows her brows. "It's a thing from the past and Niall is trying to move on."

"And I get that but come on, don't you think he deserved to know?"

"I want to be left alone." Niall mumbles.

"Niall," Shawn goes over to him.

"No, please, I need to be alone." He wasn't feeling too well, having them all hovering over him only made him feel even worse.

"Okay." Zayn sighs, he tells the others to head out him following behind them.

Niall waits until they shut the door to let the tears roll down his face. He wasn't sure how he was actually feeling, it all felt like a mix of emotions. It exhausted him and instead of trying to figure out his feelings he decided on taking a nap.

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"Are you two secretly dating?" Zayn narrows his eyes at Niall and Shawn, finally confronting the two.

"No." Niall shakes his head. "Why?"

"You two seem a bit suspicious, like you're hiding something." He sips on the beer. "Are you hiding something?"

"No, we're not." Shawn says quickly, too quickly only making Zayn not believe him.

"Disappearing once a week not letting anyone know where you lot are going is kinda fishy." Zayn says.

"We go out to study." Niall rolls his eyes. "Stop over analyzing everything we do."

"Well I wouldn't be doing so if you would just talk to me. You trust him more than me and that fucking hurts. Even Eleanor has been distant because she feels like you don't want to be friends with her anymore."

"Does she actually think that?" He asks a bit hurt.

"You don't talk to us like you used to, if this is about how we weren't supportive of you then let me tell you something—"

"Zayn, that's not it at all." Niall cuts him off, he felt bad for making his friends think such way.

"Tell us what's going on then." Zayn presses he wanted to know.

"Right now all I want to do is focus on my studying and work. It might seem like I've been avoiding you but I haven't, not on purpose anyway."

"We understand what you went through was so hard on you and we wanted to give you some time to recover and still want to give you time but we also want to comfort you. If only you would let us." He didn't mean to sound so angry before and maybe he was a bit jealous of Shawn but only because Niall used to find comfort in him and now it's Shawn who he trusts more.

"I appreciate it that a lot," Niall smiles. "Sorry for, well, pretty much pushing you away because at the end of the day you're my best friend, my brother and I shouldn't have done that." He pulls him in for a hug.