Same Mistakes - One Direction Fanfiction

Chapter 17

I heard a door slamming and my eyes opened alertly, how did I get from just being outside with Lou, to in my bed? Not in the only place I want to be, not in Doncaster. It was a dream, I'd been longing for Louis so much i dreamt about him, and it made me feel worse. I knew it was my time to go. Now.

I get out of bed, not bothering to get changed from yesterdays clothes. I just went downstairs, placed my letter on the kitchen counter and sat outside watching the busy road in front of me. Cars zoomed past every few minutes, I sat watching, imagining which of the unsuspecting drivers would help me escape this torture.

I lean back on the curb, watching the cars glide past me and I think back to myself. Why do I want to do this? I think back to the day I woke up in that hospital room with Jonah and Kara, finding out that Jonah and my so called ‘best friend’ Kara were having an affair. The dream. Everything that made me want to do this. It made me confirm that I wanted to do this.

I looked up into the sky , it was early morning, 5 am to be exact. Little stars were dotted randomly on the blue canvas that was slowly getting lighter and lighter. One shone even brighter than the rest which surrounded it. “Don’t worry Lou, I'll be back with you soon” I whispered, feeling a salty tear roll gently down my cheek.

I saw a shiny red car turn the corner of the road quickly, I stood up, bracing myself for what was to come.

I was about to jump, to end everything. Until I heard screeches. The car had stopped. “What the fuck do you think you’re doing?!?!” The driver shouted.

“Ermmm” I mumbled. Leg it I thought, turning on my heels and running down the road, and I couldn’t control where my feet were taking me. They were taking me to Jonah’s.

I smashed against his front door with my fist until he answered. “What the fuck do you want?” he asked.

“To talk, that’s all” i say, he opened the door wide enough for me to get through and he lead me to his room.

“So what do you want to talk about?” He asked, sitting on his bed.

“Why did you cheat on me with Kara?” I blurted out.

“You were in a coma for months! Kara was helping me through it and you know that I needed someone to look after me” Jonah started.

“But to cheat on me! That’s helping you?” I shouted.

“Well I didn’t think you’d notice! You’re practically in another world anyway Mackenzie!”

“No I am not!”

“Yes you are Mackenzie, don’t kid yourself you little bitch” he said slapping me.

“You bastard!”

“I don’t give a shit! Go back to your ‘Louis’” he spat.

“Don’t you talk about him” I screamed, hitting him.

I could feel him lift me up and feel myself being thrown across the room, until I crashed into the wall. A pain shot through my whole body as I fell to the floor.

"Stop, please" I gasped out. He walked over to me, fury in his eyes as I lay in pain on the floor.

“Why don’t you shut the fuck up?” I heard him say before i got a final kick in the head causing me to knock out.

My eyes were stinging, i could smell the disinfectant in the room, i must be in hospital. But what put me here? What happened? Think Kenzie, think. I remember everything. The cars, running to Jonah's, the argument.

“Oh Kenzie, please wake up” I heard the familiar voice of my mother, i felt her hand on mine, rubbing circles on the back of my hand with her thumb.