Never Let me Go(Robert Downey jr Fanfiction)

Too Hard

*Three Months Later*

Liza has gone to chemotherapy ever since we left the hospital. I managed to get her into a community college for start. It was the only thing that kept her spirits up. There were times were she got sick really bad and had to be hospitalized. No matter how much it broke my heart to see her this sick. My mind remained positive that she could be cure of this disease. The realization of having Cancer affected Liza in some ways. Fear of dying and depression. I couldn't allow her to relapse into drugs again. I had her scheduled to visit a therapist at least once a week. Her mental state has shown some progress but. we have to maintain it. Her parents still came around to see her. They kept her spirits up and took care of her when I was at work. I still avoid my parents. They see me at the market and I would act as if I don't know them. Liza thinks I should give them another chance. I'm just not ready to forgive them. I placed Liza's life in their hands. Asked them to call me when she was hurt or unhappy. They broke a promise. Maybe someday I'll forgive them.

I arrived home from work tired. Liza was on the couch watching television. She turned to see me with a smile. I take a seat next to her kicking my shoes off. She wrapped her arms around my waist resting her head against my chest. I kissed her forehead and chuckled. "How was work?" asked Liza. "Same as usual. Boring." I sighed hugging her tight against. "What about you?" Liza look up at me. Her eyes twinkled as she gazed at me. "I tired myself out study for my exam tomorrow. History sucks." she groaned. "I looked up your grades by the way. I am very proud of you." "I did it because of you." "Aww, I'm touched." We both shared a laugh.

I moved a strand of hair from her face. I kissed her lips gently. She wrapped her arms around me kissing me with such passion. I can feel her fingers running through my hair. She leaned back smiling at me. "I love you, Robert." I kissed her cheek then hugged her. "I love you more." "Will I survive this?" I looked up at her confused as she sat there upset. "What are you talking about?" "You know. This cancer I have. I keep feeling as if I won't get better." "Liza, you will get better. You are the strongest person I know. Remember you have me to get you through this. I refuse to let you go." "Robert, I'm still scared. I want to be happy and live a fulfilling life. Get married, have kids, and not have to worry about dying."

She began crying. I cupped my hands around her face. She tried avoiding eye contact with me. "You are not going to die. You are going to be fine. I don't care if you are sick. I'm going to marry you and we can have kids if want. As many as you want." I said. She giggled wiping the tears away. "I will continue to love you the same. Try not to stress over this so much. Your a survivor." Liza sighed while hugging me. "I will try." she assured. "Good. Now, I'm starving and I need help making something." "Let's just go out to eat. I could really go for some barbeque." I chuckled out loud as she yanked me up from the couch. "Let me guess Bubba's fall off the bone ribs." "Yep." I laughed as we left out the door.

Liza looked so cute with barbeque sauce on the side of her mouth. Bubba's BQ was our favorite spot for quality ribs. I take the napkin and wipe the side of her mouth. She smiled at me and took a bite out of her potato salad. "You know this place hasn't changed over the years." I said looking around. "It's only been six years. Either way, Lance would never change the interior." answered Liza taking a sip from her drink. "Brings back a lot of memories though. All of our friends sitting in that booth over there. After a trumpet win from our rival team." "Yes, I do. Best times of my life was when I had you there." "I couldn't agree more." I smiled at her stretching back in my seat. I notice Liza take off to the bathroom. I quickly followed behind her.

I can hear on the other side of the door she was vomiting. "Liza, baby let me in." I called. "Go away! I'm fine." she cried. Her voice crack as if she was hiding something. I hear a loud fumble in the bathroom and I grew worried. I asked Lance to unlock the bathroom door. He opened the door and gasped in shock. There was blood all over the toilet seat and on the floor. Liza laid there on the floor passed out. I picked her up in my arms running out the door. I drove to the hospital ignoring every stop sign. Once I made it I carried her inside nearly losing my mind. The fear of something major was wrong with her. I wait out in the waiting room as they tended to Liza. I wish she wasn't going through this pain. It's not fair. I hate seeing her suffer.

Dr. Ross comes out and walk towards me. My heart pounded against my chest from the fear of bad news. The guy sure as hell didn't appear to have good news to tell. "I'm afraid I have some bad news." he started off. "Please tell me she's okay?" I begged. "Mr. Downey, the tumor is back. She needs to under go surgery again to remove it. The stages of the cancer is rising. She's unable to fight off the disease because her white blood cells and weak immune system won't let it. Her chemotherapy need to be doubled. I'm so sorry." "So, your saying there's no hope?" "I wish I could say there is hope. But, I would be lying." "She's going to die isn't she. Just fucking say it!" He stood there trying to avoid my question. I broke down immediately. The pain of knowing this is the end was unbearable. My beautiful Liza. I don't want to lose her. I want to be the one with this. She doesn't deserve it. I calmed down a little looking up at the Dr. Ross. "How long does she have?" I asked. He sighed and rubbed his eyes. "A month. It's only a matter of time before her whole system shuts down. If she continues the Chemotherapy it would give more time. We just have to see." he replied sadly. "I want to see her." He nodded his head and I followed him to her room.

I stepped into her room trying to remain calm. She smile at me weakly holding her hand out to me. I take it squeezing it tight. I began to ball like a baby hold her hand against my cheek. "I don't want to lose you. I'm not ready to let you go." I wept. I can feel her fingers running through my hair gently. "You must be strong. I love you so much." she said fighting back tears. "I can't Liza! I don't want to live without you. You're the love of my life." "You're my heart as well. Like you told me I have to fight. I could careless what that doctor says. I haven't lost hope." "What if this is punishment for abandoning you?" She cups her hands around my face and stares at me intensely. "You did nothing wrong. This was sickness was bound to happen." I hugged her tightly crying. "I'm not going anywhere. I promise you. I can survive this." I smiled at her pressing my lips against hers. We kissed each other passionately. Liza pulls away smiling. Her beautiful green eyes gleamed in mine. I loved how she was confident about the entire situation. I was afraid she would give up.

The nurses come in to take her into surgery. I followed them toward the operating room. "I will be fine. I love you." said Liza smiling at me. "I love you, more. You're a survivor. Always have been." I comforted kissing her hand. They rolled her into the room and I stood there fighting back my tears. I hate every second of this. I sat in the chapel praying that Liza can pull through this surgery. She can pull through this cancer. If Liza doesn't care about one month being her last then I shouldn't. I believe she can make it. I just need to have faith.