ADOPTED?!?!?!?!?

The name's Sam. Samantha really But I prefer Sam. Im 13. Imma badass. I steal and get into fights...alot. Ive been in juvie lots of time. I don't really care. I've been hurt many times in my life. I've been raped and abused. I cut by the way. I live in an orphanage. Everybody here hates me and to those bitches...the feeling's mutual. The people here are nasty rotten bastards. Not any one of them are nice. Nobody adopts me. Im really rude and sassy and a huge troublemaker but I guess you realised that when I started talking about juvie. And everybody wants a nice obedient child. I am anything but nice and obedient. Im just a very broken girl who seems tough. I used to be a good girl...until my Mum and brother died in a car accident. I don't even wanna talk about it. Im never emotional. I've not cried since I was 7. Tears show weakness. I'll die before I look weak infront of anyone. Im anti-social. I hate people. I don't wanna ever get adopted. I hate the orphanage but I dont wanna get adopted either. Im planning to run away soon. I hate myself. I have trust issues. I won't ever let anyone in because i'll get hurt in the end. Music is my life. I can play the violin,guitar,piano,bass,drums,cello,flute and xylophone. I sing a little. But im not very good. My favourite bands are Black Veil Brides and my Chemical Romance. Anyways...thats all...peace out.