Still Here ~K.T.H

7

Drip Drip Drip Drip...

I walked in the rain, it was cold and wet.

Did Taehyung ever did love me?

He used to show it but maybe that can change. Were those feelings ever there? Was he just using me to get in my pants then leave?

I feel so useless and unwanted.

Why? Just why? Why did all of this have to happen? I love his dumbass but those feelings don't go both ways. 

Suddenly I was on the ground. I looked back and I tripped on the curb. I was in the middle of the street crying. I couldn't hold it anymore. I needed to let it all out. Was I ever loved?

I don't fucking understand. Was all of this just Fake Love? Was it something I imagined? Was I always in a coma and I just imagined all of this? Do I even know Kim Taehyung?

I looked in the distance as a car was coming my way in the pouring rain. I wanted to die at that moment. I wanted to leave this place and go with my grandmother. 

I stood up while the car was speeding down the street at high speed. I was finally going to find a peaceful place. I closed my eyes and spread my arms wide, Ready to die.

Goodbye my dear Kim Taehyung

"Why!?!? Why is it always you?"

Taehyung was holding me tightly. He grabbed me and pulled me out of the way. 

"Why are you always doing stupid things?" Taehyung said.

I cried and hugged him back.

"Why don't you love me anymore?" I said.

No answer but he hugged me tighter.

Taehyung said, "Y/N."

"Yes?"

"Look at me."

I looked up and he was crying as well.

He said, "I never stopped loving you."

I was dazed at those words.

"But, you're better off without me."

I grabbed his shirt and said, "Why?"

He sighed and said, "I couldn't protect you like I wanted to."

 Silence

"But, why did you leave me when you told me you would stay with me?"

"I-I thought you were better off without me."

"Taehyung! When I woke up, I wanted to kill myself because you weren't there."

He looked shocked.

"Taehyung, I love you and only you, To the stars and back."

He looked at me sadly and said, "I know you do but I'm not the one for you."

He hugged me again and said, "I'm sorry Y/N, but I can't be with you."

No, No, please don't leave me again. 

Anything but this. 

Please don't leave me.

 I love you with all my heart. 

Taehyung please don't I'm begging you. 

Stay with me. 

Don't leave my side. 

Just please stay with me. 

You know I love you and only you.

Please.

"Taehyung," I called.

 He looked my way. I ran up to him, grabbed his face, and kissed him trying to transmit all my love into this one kiss.

I broke the kiss and said, "Stop this. I love you and you are good enough for me. If I say so then you are."

He looked into my eyes.

I ran my hand on his cheeks and said, "I only want you. Nobody else will ever replace the love I have for you. You were my first and you will be my last."

He smiled warmly and held my hand like I was a delicate flower.

He said, "Ok, but please give me some time to get everything clear and settled." 

I nodded.

He pecked my lips and said, "Damn I missed you."

I smiled and he hugged me again.

He then walked me to his car while holding my hand. 

I was happy again with the one I loved. 

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I swear to god, nothing will break us apart.