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tired of having someone that's not mine

tired of having someone that's not mine

inspired by Camila's song and her words in insta's live, thank you capitan Sinu!
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It was 11 at night, outside bright shining moon was high up in the sky, and many little sparkle stars.

Petite Cuban girl sighed after closing her notepad and throwing pen away, throwing herself down on the bed she gripped her sheets and stared at the ceiling.

Is she cheating on her heart?

She asked herself, lying to herself, trying to make herself feel satisfied, less emotional and ignoring her soul. 

But when she writes she screams all the feelings out of her mind, soul and heart.

Turning on the stomach she silently screamed into her pillow and punched it, she can't control her heart race and pain like someone's needling her whole body.
She's burning fire.

What is he doing right now?

She squeezed her hair to stop thinking of something she can't have.

Getting her breath steady she closed her eyes, remembering how she used to feel in relationship before, being with someone she had feelings with, but not that strong.

She thought relationship will make you fall in love, but then something else happened.

You don't need to be someone's to fall harder then ever before, love. Wow it's amazing, so beautiful, magical, valuable, just it isn't hers.

Her love isn't hers.

Hot tears rolled down her cheeks,
he doesn't even know, he doesn't know that she's loving him, crushing on him, crying because of him, all because she can't have him.

why do we put each other through hell?

His music repeated in her mind like roller coaster, god, it's living hell. She can't take it anymore.

Door of her hotel room opened and her mother came in, she quickly wiped her tears away.
"Mija"

"Mum why aren't you sleeping?" Camila asked her, she saw her figure sitting next to her "I wanted to check if your asleep"

Camila buried her face into pillow hugging it "what's wrong?"

"Nothing, I'm tired"

But Sinu knew it's not nothing.

"Camila tell me" she shocked her head sniffing softly "you cried" Sinu reached for notepad which was half opened and started to read words "you wrote this now?" Camila nodded "two songs?"

"Someone must be a good inspiration" Sinu moved Camila's hair from her face and smiled.

"Tell him"

Camila sat on the bed looking down at her hands "I can't"

"You love him, don't you"

"More than ever"

Her mother took her hands into her warm ones and smiled, "that's why you gotta tell him, don't put yourself through saddens"

"I'm gonna loose him if I do" Camila blinked and another few years escaped her chocolate eyes.

"Sweetheart, he loves you, he would take a bullet for you" Camila finally looked at her mother, not saying a word "you know I love him like my son, Camila"

"Mum, it will ruin everything"

"It won't, God, I can't get enough of you two being happy together, how you two make each other laugh and so free"