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mentions of abuse ahead

antisocial-gal : natsuko, how are ya feeling?

Area51 : i don't wanna talk rn

antisocial-gal : wait, i just wanna talk.

Area51 : and i don't wanna talk. can't you respect that? or is that why you're friends with yuuri? so you both can torment me?

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Area51 : im sorry. im lashing out on you because im mad rn. not as much mad at yuuri as much as myself. i said stuff that made him feel bad so i deserve it.

antisocial-gal : you're being really chill and mature about this. thank you. can you we please talk about what happened today?

Area51 : i genuinely don't mind. i just don't want to make anyone else sad.

antisocial-gal : so, me and yuuri talked about some stuff, and he's gonna say sorry.

Area51 : great. ofc you talked to him first. sheesh, why don't you two just fuck each other already?

antisocial-gal : w-what? we don't like each other like that...

Area51 : sure. whatever you wanna believe. anyways... what did he say about our conversation?

antisocial-gal : well, he said that his cutting thing isn't sexual. he also said he's been doing it since he was like 10. it's a pretty sensitive subject, it sounds like.

Area51 : i knew it was... i was just being a goddamn prick.

antisocial-gal : hey bud. don't talk like that. you know it was wrong, so don't beat yourself up about it.

Area51 : whatever. what else did you two talk about?

antisocial-gal : well, we talked about what yuuri said, if that's what you weren't already thinking.

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antisocial-gal : hey, we don't have to talk about it if you don't want to. i know you gotta love your mom a lot, and to have things said about her like that must hurt.

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Area51 : nothing he said wasn't far from the truth. my mama isn't... a very nice person sometimes..? i guess that's what you could say.

antisocial-gal : ah, i see. can you specify is you don't mind?

Area51 : well uhm. she uhh drinks a lot. but that's nothing too bad, i guess.

antisocial-gal : okay, that's a bit bad. does anything happen when she drinks? like what yuuri talked about?

Area51 : nope. she's actually rlly chill when she drinks. it's when she doesn't when there's a problem.

antisocial-gal : and... what kind of problem?

Area51 : are you going to satori and mateo about this shit? if you rat, ill kick u outta the club myself.

antisocial-gal : ill only share when you want me to.

Area51 : okay hold on i need a second to stop crying enough to see my phone screen

antisocial-gal : hey, dont cry. it's okay, shortie.

Area51 : it's not you or yuuri's fault this time. funny story, it's actually about my mom.

Area51 : whew okay. my mom use to be with my dad, yeah? big happy family. then, it was morning time. third grade. we woke up, my dad made breakfast and served us. he had to go to work while my mom usually stays at home and stuff. i was suppose to go with my dad that day, but i convinced my parents to stay home. wanna guess what happened at exactly 8:02 in the morning?

antisocial-gal : uhm. idk. what happened?

Area51 : my dad died in a car accident that morning.

antisocial-gal : oh my god, natsuko, im so sorry. i would never wish something like that upon you. hell, i wouldn't want wish that on my worse enemy.

Area51 : my mom has despised me ever since. well, despised is the wrong word. she doesn't exactly like me, but she stands me. she blames me for my dad's death, and if i went with him, i would've died too. and she would like it that way. sometimes i wish i could trade myself for papa. i-i miss them.

antisocial-gal : natsuko, listen to me. nothing that happened to your father is your fault. it was a freak accident. it is not your fault.

Area51 : i get it. but anyways. my mom usually takes it out on me when she can't afford wine or vodka or something. she'll hit me or yell at me. idk.

antisocial-gal : that's horrible. you know what, fuck that. yuuri would yell at 4 that but you deserve better. the second we graduate high school, ur moving in with me.

Area51 : Wait, really? are you serious?

antisocial-gal : yes. fuckin dead serious.

Area51 : holy shit ur gonna make me cry again wtf

Area51 : ur so goddamn nice stop it

Area51 : fuck, i love you so much. you're the best.

antisocial-gal : anytime bud.

Area51 : oh my god im so giddy.

Area51 : is everyone okay with this? have you talked about it to anyone?

antisocial-gal : no, i just decided it. ill talk to mateo and satori is youd like.

Area51 : yeh that sounds great.

Area51 : im just gonna be here, happy

antisocial-gal : haha, okay. i hope you have something to look forward to at the end of year. ill go talk to satori.

Area51 : k, ill see you later :)

antisocial-gal : ily bye

Area51 : ilyt, buh-bye