Thinking Out Loud

Chapter Five

I knew it was a big step to admit to Camila that I was actually falling in love with her. But, I also knew that if we wanted to have any possibility of a successful relationship, honesty was the key.

"I'm not usually one top spoil a romantic moment.."I began, my fingers slowly skimming over the features of Camila's face."But we have some serious discussing to do."

"I agree."Camila said, taking a seat on my bed.

Once she was situated, and comfortable, I took a seat beside of her.

"So."I cleared my throat, looking down at my hands that were rested against my thighs."We obviously can't tell anyone anything about us."I said, realizing how harsh it must hace sounded as soon as it left my lips. Although there was a look of sadness in her eyes, she nodded her head.

"You're right."She agreed, her voice almost too soft to hear.

"It's not that I don't want people to know."I told her, shifting my legs so I was now on my side looking at her."Because I would be so honored to let the whole fucking world know that I was lucky enough to have the most beautiful, passionate, loving woman in  the world. It's just that there would be so much pressure and so many people watching us that it would just be.."

"Lauren."Camila let out in a giggle, causing me to stop myself from rambling on. The way that her eyes crinkled slightly as she laughed, and the smile that consumed her face, caused my heart to flutter as a smile to surface on my lips.

"What?"I asked innocently.

"Don't worry."She said, her hand brushing back the loose hairs that had fallen around my face."I know you want me."

"Oh do you?"I asked, nudging her with my elbow."Cocky."I mumbled under my breath.

My comment caused a broad smile to appear on the younger girl's features as her eyes studied mine.

"But we can't even tell the girls."I added, trying to get back to the subject at at hand.

"Can you imagine what they will do if they find out that we have been lying to them?"She questioned.

I let out a sigh, nodding my head. The girls would be hurt to know that Camila and I had kept our relationship from them. But there was also the possibility that they would not be too fond of the idea.

"But what if they don't think it is a good idea for us to be together?"I recipricated.

Looking over at Camila, her eyes were focused on the wall as she concentrated, her teeth holding the flesh of her bottom lip captive like she always did while she was deep in thought. As much as I needed to focus on the conversation at hand, all I could think about was the feeling of her soft lips against mine.

"We could-"As Camila began to talk I took one of her hands in mine, planting a kiss on the top of it gently. My eyes peered up at her, an eyebrow arched slightly.

"Go on."I urged, placing another kiss on her wrist.

Biting her lip, Camila cleared her throat.

"What I was saying was that.."With every word that escaped her lips, mine inched their way up her arm."We could keep whatever we are between us and.."

By now, my lips had already made their way to her collar bone. In response to my silent request, Camila stopped talking and tilted her head back to grant my lips access to her now exposed skin.

"And what?"I whispered against her skin.

"And we can talk about it later."She replied. I smirked against her skin, my lips not advancing any further.

"No, no. We need to talk about it now."I told her, sitting back up on the bed.

Camila stared at me, her lips slightly parted as her eyes narrowed at me.

"What?"I said, biting the inside of my cheek to maintain a straight face.

"Are you serious right now?"She asked.

"Dead."

A groan escaped the smaller girl's lips as she flopped back onto the pillows.

"You're such a tease."She mumbled, rolling over on her side so her back was facing me.

"Aw, Camz."I mimicked in a baby voice, laying down beside of her."Let's not get upset."I said, wrapping my arms around her.

"Don't touch me."She griped, shaking her head as I buried my face into her hair. I chuckled, kissing the nape of her neck.

"Okay, I promse I'll be serious."I said, my legs tangling with hers."Tell me the rest of your plan."

Despite my request, the brown hair girl remained silent. I knew what she was doing; she was trying to not give in to my request.

I slowly kissed my way up the back of her neck, my lips coming to rest just behind her right ear.

"Tell me."I whispered again, my fingers brushing against her abdomen.

"I think we should just give us a trial period, you know? Only you and I will know, and we won't make anything official. We can try it out for the next month and see if we can hide it well enough, then if we do well and really know that this is what we want, then we can tell the girls. And we can just go from there."She explained. I took in everything she said, my chin rested against her shoulder.

"You're brilliant."I said, using my strength advantage to roll her over so she was now facing me.

"What can I say?"She mumbled, her foreheaad rested against mine."You inspire me."

I grinned, my eyes locked on hers. As silence took over the room, I let out a deep laugh.

"What's so funny about that?"She questioned, confused by my sudden laughter. I shook my head, trying to stop myself.

"It's not that."I assured her, my laugh now just a chuckle."It's just ironic, you know? On Faking It, Karma and Amy faked being lesbians. And here you and I are, doing the complete opposite and faking it that we aren't together."

After my explanation, Camila let out a laugh similar to mine.

"We're totally faking it."