The Bad Boys a Girl

CHAPTER SEVEN

I grabbed his shirt and yanked him into an empty classroom. If anyone saw, it would probably look like we were doing gay shit.

I grabbed the front of his shirt with both hands and lifted him off the ground and into the wall getting really close to him. I was shorter than him by a few inches so it looked awkward.

"Woah! Woah! What are you doing?" He freaked out.

Screw it! I need to talk, I just have to make my voice low and in a whisper, hopefully he won't notice.

"You didn't tell anyone about that place, right?" My voice was raspy.

"Ummm...no?" He questioned. I yanked him towards my face and off the wall so we were level.

"Who did you tell?" I seethed.

"U-u-Uh, it was Reece, a-a-and Caden" he stuttered.

Great, he tells the other most popular people at school.

I punched the wall next to his face and let him drop to the ground.

"W-why, do you c-care?" He questioned.

I don't care, shotgun does. If people from school found out then eventually a cop will find out. I will get arrested and my family would know I was alive. They would not accept who I've become so they can not know.

"Why were you there" he asked getting back on his feet.

I don't have to answer his questions. I just gotta find Reece Williams and Caden Knight. The popular jocks, they would be the bad boys if I wasn't here.

Reece is the leader.

I found him, running down the hallway about to throw a football to Caden. Idiots.

It hit a nerd point blank in the face and he fell down immediately. Ouch, that has to hurt, he probably broke his nose and I don't think they are accustomed to pain.

I didn't say they were good jocks.

Too many people around, would cause too much suspicion. I have to do it when he or Caden is alone, they skip a lot of classes so it won't be hard. The second period bell rung and the crowd started to fade, there were still too many people. I had to wait for people to stop going to the bathrooms and crap. Finally I got them both, grabbing both of them by their shirts and yanking them both into another empty classes.

"What the fuck!" Caden yelled at me and I threw my fist back and stepped towards him, causing both of them to shut up.

Grabbing them both by their shirts again I yanked them close to me.

"Did you tell anyone?" I gritted out as raspy as I could.

"Tell anyone that you go to an underground fighting ring club?" Reece gasped dramatically and I shoved him into the wall harshly, almost causing another hole from when I punched one earlier.

"Did you tell anyone?" I twisted his arm behind his back causing him to shriek.

"No, no, no I didn't" he said rapidly.

"You didn't tell anyone either?" I went to Caden.

"No I-I didn't" he stuttered, putting his hands behind his back, like that'll stop me.

"Don't tell anyone, got it!" I whispered and left the room.

I'm so stupid, I should have kicked him out or punched him in the head yesterday, I should have looked behind me to see if anyone was following me. This could ruin everything.

I was angry, infuriated, agitated, fuming. I could barely breathe, I could not be in school right now. I can't believe I let this happen, I'm such an idiot!

I left the school, just not being able to deal with any of this right now. I went to my special place, everyone has one. You would think it would be the underground ring but it isn't. It's a lake.

It was a beautiful lake on the side of the road but the silver rails on the perimeter of the road didn't let anyone get through. It wasn't a busy road either, it was a very sharp turn though.

The sun was reflected on the water with geese sort of frolicking around. A little bench was placed on a concrete slab facing the pond, I don't know why because it's not a common place to visit.

I sat on the bench and took my hoodie off, I refused to wear my hoodie here. I was silent for a while, just staring into the depths of the water.

"Hey Carrie" I whispered.

"I had a little bit of a frustrating day so far" I exhaled shakily.

"I know you are probably incredibly disappointed in me and I expect that, I can't believe I made my life like this." I stare down on the concrete slab below me.

"These stupid boys, very stupid boys know my secret and are keeping it in their dunderhead brains and I just know it won't stay there for long. And if they say anything than I could potentially get exposed or the club will get shut down and I'll die. I'll die again. My family could find out about me and I know they are as disappointed as you are, looking down at me when I failed you. I'm sorry." My voice cracks as I said the last thing.

I can't cry, I refuse. I'm stronger than that.

I got up off the bench and went closer to the water, just to the edge.

"I wish you were back down here, on this piece of shit earth. I would be able to handle all of this a bit better, I wouldn't be doing this at all, everything would be different. If you were down here I could fix myself. I know it's my fault you're up their in the first place, I know, I'm aware, I've accepted it but I have not forgiven myself. I will never forgive myself until you are right here next to me. I don't care if you hate me, I just want you back" I kick the water.

"I can't wait to join you up there one day, I really want to, but I need to go on my own time. Even though you aren't even here, you always help me calm down. Love you, miss you, goodbye Carrie" I stared at the water. That's how I end it every time I go here.