𝖤𝗑𝗎𝗅𝖺𝗇𝗌𝗂𝗌

𝖳𝖾𝗆𝗉𝗍𝖺𝗍𝗂𝗈𝗇𝗌

Finn's POV
"What the fuck are you wearing" Lila came out the her bathroom with a jean skirt and a pink crop top but the problem Was there wasn't enough skin showing for me
"I thought it was cute but simply" I rolled my eyes at her as she looked at me with nervous eyes, I couldn't even look at the dumb ass outfit she had on so I changed it to what she would look good in, she had on a black bralette so all she need was her black mesh crop top and short shorts
"Here put this on then those heels" she looked at me as if she wanted to say something but if she knew what was good for her she wouldn't
"Say something and I swear I'll leave" she took her crop top off and skirt and to the outfit I picked out
"See now you look like someone I'd really want to fuck" I bite my lip as I seen the flicker of disappointment in her eyes but like other times she never said nothing she just smiled and agreed then put on the heels
"Ok well I'm ready come on" I stood up and grabbed her hand pulling her to my chest
"You look so good" she looked at me with those innocent green eyes that I loved, I kissed her just to feel the hint of lust in the relationship
"Is't all Ready 8 come on" we left out her room running towards the street, my house was a 5 minute walk from house se we were just gonna walk, as we walked I could already see people headed to my house, I asked my friends to get it started while I was with Lila
"My feet hurt" I hear Lila complain being her boyfriend I let her go on my back and carry her to the party
"Thanks baby" she wrapped her long arms around my neck
"I'm kinda looking forward to tonight, what about you?" I stayed quite for a moment because tonight was going to be like always, a bunch of damage teens fucking up their life even more then before as bad as it sounds I liked it only because I could see that I wasn't the only one. Sometimes I'd tell myself that I'm not the only one but that's not enough so I have to see it with my own eyes. I approached the house and put Lila down and walked into the flashing loud house that played the songs from whatever's play list, the thick tempting sent of a mixture of weed and liquor hit me in my face begging for me to taste it
"WOLFHARD" Joey screams in my face and wrapped his arm around my neck bringing me in the crowed of sweaty and drunk teenagers
"HERE DRINK THIS" Joey shoves a red cup in my hand, the sent was so strong that it made me light headed, this shit was strong which was good the stronger the better it was. It lead my sober ness out of mind completely just making me want to take in more and more until I couldn't feel nothing but sweet hot sweat pouring out of me and warm light on my face. With out another thought I took it all in with on big ass gulp, I could feel it burn the back of my throat
"NOW THIS SHIT GOT STARTED"
Millie's POV
I walked in with Sadie and Jack looking around letting the bright lights blind me and the loud music busting my ear drums, the deeper we walking in the house the hotter it got making me want to take off every piece of clothing that stuck to my body like glue, the tight jeans that Sadie let me ware was uncomfortable, I hated how it fit so much but it was the only choice I had so I went with it to make her happy, the hot made the air close in on me making me breath heavily practically gasping for any clean air
"I have to pee" I screamed in Sadie's ear, she looked at me and nodded, I looked around for the stairs which were full of heavy drink teens that didn't give two fucks about shit, I pushed past them and walked to the bathroom still pushing past until I made it in closing and locking the door behind me still hearing the music and loud banging, I looked at myself in the mirror with a plain expression, I looked at how my long old dark blue sweater wrapped around my small slim figure admiring the dull color and all the secrets it held for me before digging in the pocket and pulling out the tiny ziplock bag that I got from Caleb's house, I stared down at the pills nervously not knowing none of the things it was capable of in minutes. I opened it shaking remember the first time I did it and how I thought i was going to die at the age of 15, I remembered it so clearly. It was a Saturday night and I was at another party just trying to get away from my problems, I remember tell these 4 random dudes why I was there at the party and one of them gave me my first Codeine and I took exactly 3 at a time only god knows why the fuck I took them, I just didn't think of them much until I started to depend on more, to swallow the pill they made me drink which was a bad idea by at least 10 minutes later it hit me like full speed, I was tripping like crazy, I remember I was sitting in the hall not being able to move and crying a little because I thought I was dying, my breath was slowing down and so was my heart and so was everything else I felt so out of it I couldn't move like normal, I wanted to get up and screaming for help so bad but nothing in me moved I wanted to be pampered by someone who'd rock me back and forth until the odd feeling went away but I couldn't, I sat there to the point where everything I ever wanted or needed sunk so deep I forgot they were there, and at that moment that very moment I felt ok in the skin I called my own and then after a long moment of silence i realized it's all I ever needed. The feeling of nothing but numbness. I've been attached ever since but now I look at that memory and I just hate it sometimes but all I can do now is put the pill in my mouth-look back up at the mirror and say God help me.