I wake up with a throbbing headache. I squint my eyes and massage my temples, noticing that I'm not in my typical room.
"Wha—," I begin to say, until I realise what happened the night before.
I groan and fall backwards back onto Jinsoul's bed.
"You are never going to drink again, Ha Sooyoung," I tell myself.
I hear a knock on the door and sit up. Jinsoul's head peaks around the door.
"How are you feeling Sooyoung?" she asks.
She closes the door and walks over to stand by me.
"What time is it?" I ask groggily.
"Nearly 2," she replies. "You've been out for a while. Jungeun and Yerim thought you might've been dead." Jinsoul laughs nervously.
"Yeah..."
My mind drifts to Jiwoo and I feel my heart beat faster with anxiety. What if she finds out about this?
Jinsoul gives a slight sigh and reaches to help me stand. "C'mon let's get you in the shower."
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For the first time in what feels like forever, Jiwoo sits beside me at dinner later that night.
"Hey, are you okay Sooyoungie?" she asks, a look of concern on her face. "I haven't seen you all day and you don't look so good. And, why do you smell different?" she breathes in deeply and gives me a look.
"Oh, I—I think I'm coming down with a cold or something," I say, turning my face away and giving a fake cough. "And...," I scramble for an excuse. "I-I ran out of soap this morning, so Jinsoul let me borrow hers."
Jiwoo rubs my back sympathetically. "Aww I'm sorry baby. I hope you feel better quickly. I've really missed you."
She sighs and looks down at her lap. "I wanted to say that I'm sorry for acting like such a bitch. I should've realised that I shouldn't focus on what I want all the time. You have needs too, you know? Relationships are all about compromises and making sacrifices and I shouldn't have been so pushy and rude. I'm sorry Sooyoung."
I feel sick to my stomach and tears begin to form in my eyes. What am I supposed to say to that? Jiwoo is so sweet and I can't bear to let her down.
"I'm sorry too Jiwoo. I was selfish too and should have expressed my feelings better. I guess..." I pause for a second, not sure what to say. "I guess I've just been so caught up in the new comeback that I haven't really felt like doing anything sexual. I'm sorry for making you feel upset and alone."
I truly mean every word I just said to Jiwoo, but for some reason, that only makes the feeling in my stomach worsen.
"How about when you get all better, we go on a nice date, hmm?" Jiwoo looks at me and smiles. "No sex. We can do whatever you want."
I smile, feeling ashamed and say, "Sure. That sounds perfect Jiwoo."
I can't possibly say no to her. She's simply too pure and I wish I could give her the world.
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✔ Drowning: ChuVesSoul
Fanfiction"I feel like I'm drowning... But she is the water, and maybe I don't want to be saved. Maybe I want to sink so deeply, deeply in love that there's no chance of coming back up for air. And yet, maybe I already have." - Part XIII Finished! Disclaimer:...
